Sunday, December 7, 2008

Sad End of a Friend.


Each one of us in our lives would have gone through touching times, seen incidents, events which leave their imprints in our lives….This is a true incident about a friend of mine who lost his life after being hit by a fast train on track 4 at Kandivali about 5 years back.

Surinder,21, was a normal guy, happy go lucky, fun to be with. We enjoyed his company, playing with his dog and loved to purposely tease him about his Nepali looks to make him angry. Initially they were 4 brothers and 1 sister, until his elder brother drowned in the sea many years back and it was left to him to take care of the family then being the eldest of the remaining siblings.

On that unfortunate day, he was coming back from his coaching classes along with one of his classmate, Rahul. Like many others who cross the railway track, they too decided to take the shorter route not knowing death was waiting for them on the other side of the tracks,not realizing that a fast train was approaching and soon found themselves too close to the train. At that moment both of them went blank unable to decide whether to step back or jump forward to save their lives…..Surinder took half a step back, Rahul took half a step forward but still both found themselves in the path of the oncoming train. Suddenly Rahul held Surinder’s hand, pulled him and jumped forward. Unfortunately, Surinder got hit on the head, his right leg got amputated and he died on the spot whereas Rahul managed to get past the train but the shock of what had just happened was so unbearable that he went into coma. Both were taken to Bhagwati hospital and their respective families were contacted to give them the shocking news. Surinder’s younger brother was called by the police to identify his body and by this time, we all had come to know about the sudden demise of our dear friend.

While the family was in shock seeing his body and we mourned his death, one of our rich friend Kishor and his rich friends (local corporator’s sons) had an idea- To feed dinner to 11 pandits and 100 beggars the next day as our mark of condolence to Surinder and pray for his soul……A bad idea according to me as those guys thought themselves too smart to decide what should be done in such sad time and all that too against the customs and religion.

Next evening, the parking area next to Surinder’s building was cleared, halogens put, carpets spread and a table was laid on which stood a big photograph of our friend with a garland and flowers around while the caterers prepared the dinner in the garages behind. All of our friends, local people from the complex, watchmen, etc had gathered. Many people shed a tear or two and left. By this time, Kishor could manage to get only 7 pandits but not even a single beggar came on knowing that it was offered as a condolence to the dead. The Pandits came, had a small prayer, enjoyed the dinner and went away…

But the food was remaining…that too of a 100 people. Kishor and his friends had spent a lot of money on the caterers and the lighting….Now what is too be done? Should the food be allowed to get wasted? Money go down the drain?.......Of course …..NOT.On hearing their next worst idea,I came back home and stood near my window.

I could see all my friends who had gathered to pay tribute to Surinder eat the remaining dinner that was meant for the beggars……a sad picture I was seeing that had a huge impact on me.

To this day I question the condolence meeting that evening, whether the friends really mourned Surinder’s death or celebrated it with a dinner party? Does anyone of you know the answer?

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Your shadow alone follows you.




In the circle of life we’re going on, and on
Meeting new faces till our time is gone, all gone
Bitter truth I want you to know
Think of it when you’re feeling low

Your shadow alone follows you
Where ever you go and whatever you do
There’s something within us that keeps us true
Where ever you go and whatever you do

We go through the smiles and we go through pain
The journey of life is not a simple game
Feel your soul, and feel your heart
And Look within, to give it a start

When you’re broken on the lonely road
Walk the path your mind has shown

Your shadow alone follows you
Where ever you go and whatever you do
There’s something within us that keeps us true
Where ever you go and whatever you do

Don’t regret, no tears for the time we see
Your best friends should be I, MYSELF, ME
Look forward with hope and enjoy the days now
Since your shadow alone follows you

When you’re broken on the lonely road
Walk the path your mind has shown

Your shadow alone follows you
Where ever you go and whatever you do
There’s something within us that keeps us true
Where ever you go and whatever you do

03.12.08

A Lovestory


Flowers bloomed in my heart, I know not why,
Stars twinkled in my eyes, I know not why,
Life looked so perfect, I know not why.

Then I decided to give it a thought
I asked my mind, my heart and soul
Eureka! I’ve found my answer
Yes, I know now that I’m in love.

Day and night I’m thinking of her
Sunrise and sunset I’m thinking of her
Everything goes so fast around
Yet time seems to have come to a standstill.

I thought & thought…I was going crazy,
So decided to express the feeling from within
Taking a chance one day I told her
And waited patiently for her answer……..

Life had changed completely for now
I was getting impatient, restless
Every minute seemed like an hour & hour seemed like a day
Every time I thought of her, the bubbles of expectation popped in my heart

Now the day has finally come and my happiness knows no bounds
Getting ready for the perfect charismatic look
Thinking that the clouds of darkness will disappear today
With a smile, I left for her……

Met her at the corner of the road
Our eyes met and my heart beat fast
Just waiting for her reply
With a mystical smile, she said……NO

My heart broke into a million pieces
My smile had evaded me
It seemed someone had stabbed me in the heart
Dejected, I turned to go.

Sitting quietly under a tree
I thought to myself-Why am I showing no feelings?
Suddenly, my face lit up as I said to myself
Why should I cry? I have not lost anything
I lost someone who did not love me,
But she lost someone who really loved her…

Next morning was a new beginning, the wind buzzed in my ears
The birds chirped and gave me strength
The fragrance of the flowers made me calm
Life looked so beautiful once again
For me that girl was just a bait
God said-For true love now my child you have to wait….

Monday, November 10, 2008

The Last Words


Last night ,I just happened to come across a piece of paper that had evaded me for almost 8 long years and there was no place at home that I had not searched for it all this while…..it had “My last words as the HEADBOY” of my dear school where I spent ten years of my life….I know ,I’m no Pandit Nehru to have my speech becoming famous like “At the stroke of midnight…….”but I decided to put it on my blog before the invaluable piece of paper gets lost again…..and also to show that the talent of writing was always there in me, I just realized it late…

Dated 30/1/2002

Respected Principal Mam, teachers and my dear friends,

It has been a pleasure being with you all and spending such a long time with you’ll. Today when it is the last day when we’ll be meeting you, I would like to share with you some of those moments which I will cherish for the rest of my life. Being in this school for a decade was a long journey for me and in these 10 years I have really learnt what it means to be a student, what should be the qualities of a student, that every person in himself has the potential to achieve great heights in life and live up to everyone’s expectations. The only thing we need is desire, devotion, dedication, faith, confidence and determination. These are the jewels of a successful life.

In this journey of school life with the school, teachers and all of you, I have traveled from the station of warmth and care to the station of love and friendship, from the station of kindness and gentleness to the station of sacrifice and happiness, from the station of faith and determination to the station of confidence and hope. And now that the journey is about to get over ,the time has come for us to leave you people to attain greater goals in life.

I still wish I could still spend more days of my life with you’ll, the teachers and the school but its not possible as everything that becomes a part of something will always have an end. The time has come when we have to fasten our seat belts and speed up to the path where we can see our goals waving to us. I wish the very best to all of you and may God bestow upon you every happiness and success.

In the end, I would like to read out to you what exactly is our life….

Life is a Challenge -meet it
Life is a Gift -accept it
Life is an Adventure -dare it
Life is a Sorrow -overcome it
Life is a Tragedy - face it
Life is a Duty -perform it
Life is a Game -play it
Life is a Mystery -unfold it
Life is a Song -sing it
Life is an Opportunity -take it
Life is a Journey -complete it
Life is a Promise -fulfill it
Life is a Love -discover it
Life is a Beauty -praise it
Life is a Truth -realise it
Life is a Struggle -fight it
Life is a Puzzle -solve it
Life is a Goal -achieve it


A heart full THANKS for all the respect and honor I have got being a part of this school that I’m so proud of.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Gunj - The Echo



Gunj Gunj
Aa rahi hai gunj
Gunj Gunj
Chaa rahi hai gunj

Gunj hoon main apni raahon ki
Gunj hoon main apni yaadon ki
Gunj hoon main apni dhadkan ki
Gunj hoon main apni tadpan ki

Zindagi tu yeh jawab de
Mere aasun kaa hisab de
kya paap maine kar diya
Kyun dard mujhe diya

Kaaton ki rah pe phir chala agar
Ladunga tujhse main wahin magar
Sar naa jhukaya hai maine abhi
Waada raha,Haar naa manunga main kabhi

Gunj Gunj
Aa rahi hai gunj
Gunj Gunj
Chaa rahi hai gunj

10.10.08

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Resurrection


When the world seems too uncaring,
People around busy and deaf hearing,
And you seek refuge, then don’t expect,
Search within yourself to get your spirit back.

Be yourself always no matter what,
Let the fire burn within molten and hot,
“You are a loser”, people may say,
But listen to what your instincts convey.

The world will then seem a better place,
Deep within you’ll find smiles and solace,
Be alone yet not lonely, your mind and soul meet,
And see yourself turn into a happy free spirit…….

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Lovestory



Flowers bloomed in my heart,
I know now why,
Stars twinkled in my eyes,
I know not why,
Life looked so perfect,
I know not why.

Then I decided to give it a thought,
I asked my mind, my heart & soul,
Eureka! I’ve found my answer,
Yes, I know now that I’m in love.

Day and night I’m thinking of her,
Sunrise and sunset I’m thinking of her,
Everything goes so fast around,
And yet I’m only thinking about her,
Has time come to a standstill ?

I thought, I thought & I was going crazy,
I decided to express the feeling from within,
Citing a chance one day I told her,
And waited patiently for her answer…

Life had changed completely for now,
I was getting impatient, restless
Every minute seemed like an hour,
And every hour seemed like a day.
Every time I thought of her,
The bubbles of expectations popped up in my heart.

Now the day has finally come,
My happiness knows no bounds,
Getting ready for the perfect charismatic look,
I looked at myself in the mirror and thought,
The clouds of darkness will disappear today,
With a smile, I left for her.

Met her at the corner of the road,
Our eyes met and my heart beats raced,
….. Just waiting for her reply,
With a mystical smile, she said ……. NO

My heart broke into a million pieces,
My smile then evaded me,
It seemed like someone had stabbed me in the heart,
Dejected, I turned to go.

Sitting quietly under a tree,
I thought to myself – Why am I showing no feelings?
Suddenly, my face lit up and I said to myself,
Why should I cry? I have not lost anything.
I lost someone who did not love me,
But she lost someone who really loved her…

Next morning was a new beginning,
The wind buzzed in my ears,
The birds chirped and gave me strength,
The fragrance of flowers left me mesmerised,
Life looked so beautiful all over again,
For me that girl was just a bait,
God said – For true love now my child you have to wait.

(Written to express the feelings of my best friend)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

My Time Machine


NEVER EXPLAIN YOURSELF TO ANYONE BECAUSE……
THE PERSON WHO LIKES YOU DOES’NT NEED IT….
AND
THE PERSON WHO DISLIKES YOU WONT BELIEVE IT……

I don’t intend to write this because I need to give an explanation to anyone nor is it because I think I’ve become too old to write my autobiography…. its just that I want to know how much I’m true to myself……This is the article in which I allow people to peek a boo in my world (unrealistic for many) which I generally hide from most people around…..Everything I write is true to the best of my knowledge…..it might seem I’m showing off but I don’t care what you think about it, whether you believe it or not…..because this is the article I’m writing and dedicating to myself.

Born on 10th feb,1987 in a small town of Shamli, U.P ,India……named as “CHATRAPATI” by the priest who made my horoscope, Nicknamed-Chunmunn / Chunnu by my brother…I have all the characteristics of a true Aquarian and a very strong number 1 person…. 1+0 = 1 for 10th February and 1+0+2+1+9+8+7=28=2+8=10=1+0= 1 for 10/02/1987…….. the reason for my leadership and dominating nature….The initial days of my life were spent in the small town life in Rajasthan where my dad was posted for his job……I don’t remember much about those days, being very young then……yet few memories still remain……my real roller coaster life started when we moved to Mumbai in August, 1993.


LIFE AT SCHOOL

I got admission in LOKHANDWALA FOUNDATION SCHOOL which had just opened then…… At first, I was denied admission to that school because I had come from a Hindi medium school in Rajasthan, the then principal Mrs.Mukherjee thought that I would find it very difficult to cope with the other city kids. After many requests, she agreed to let me in.

As time went by, I began to enjoy my school days a lot ,thanks to loads of extra curricular activities like pottery, karate, swimming, skating, boxing, craft, art, singing, cooking, dancing, etc…..apart from the usual fun curricular that schools offer to kids…..My progress started to show in my marks and by 5th standard ,I had developed the image among the teachers of a very hardworking sincere student who had a lot of potential if he still worked harder(for 5 consecutive years, both the terms, different class teachers meant the same thing just using different sentences in my remarks column).Since 5th std. the feeling of getting a rank in class struck me and till my 10th std. I always came in the top 3…never 1st because that place was always clinched by Ananya who used to be on 93-94 % and me and the Radha in 77-80 range fighting for 2nd and 3rd place. Those 10 years were when the foundation of my life was laid down and I emerged as the person I’m today…..The school gave me everything that I could have asked for to learn, brought out the best in me…..gave me the honor to be a vice prefect, then the head boy and now the President of my school alumni…..the teachers, my friends, my parents all have played their role wonderfully in getting me to stand where I’m today….on the road to become a doctor...any time I feel low in life now , I look back on those old 60 odd certificates that I won in school for quizzes ,sports ,debates ,elocution ,dramatization ,poetry writing, drawing …list continues….and my school photos and report cards that really pump me back again thinking what a great journey I had in school….. I had managed to get 91 % in 2002 I.C.S.E exam and got myself an admission in the science college I had set my target on – D.G.RUPAREL…the college where all the top rankers went. I really miss my school days because I was like a celebrity there, young preprimary children wanting to shake hands thinking that the head boy they see on the stage in the assembly everyday is someone great….but most importantly, I really just miss the applause and respect I received in school……

SURPRISINGLY,15 YEARS LATER,IN MARCH 2008- I SOMEHOW GOT IN TOUCH WITH MRS.MUKHERJEE WHO NOW TEACHES IN DHIRUBHAI AMBANI SCHOOL AND WAS INVITED FOR DINNER…...AN EMOTIONAL REUNION infact…..


JUNIOR COLLEGE DAYS

My days in college are memorable because I found my best friends for life there….ani,saucy,popu,kunal,chetan,harsh,amit…..I named our group THE SHOOTING STARZ-LIGHT YEARS AHEAD OF THE REST…..In those two years of college, we guys would have gone out for innumerable times to bandstand(my favourite place in Mumbai), lunch and dinners, bowling, few movies and the usual bunking together…..gosh I don’t believe we are still together and all 8 of us often meet frequently or at least make it a point to talk to each other...the one thing that brings a smile to my face is that during one of the English lecture, I and popu jumped out of the window into the gallery and chetan followed us waiving bye to the teacher…..We’ve shared each and every problem, crushes, journals, answer papers etc. We laughed on the same jokes, on the same people (low waist jeanswala, body builder), on the same teachers (remember Gawde? Shimpi?) and laughed aloud. We guided each other – in our careers, homework, love life (?), etc.. None of us will ever forget – Canepy, Xeroxwala, ‘aye Gujarati!’, Toke Ma’am, Tapan and his ‘slapstick’ adventure, Mahajan’s lecture (aunty log, aunty log!), etc.


LIFE IN MEDICAL COLLEGE

In 2004, Gave my medical entrance test but could manage only a dental seat which I did not want because I always dreamt to be cardiologist one day, so decided to give it another shot and slogged it out to get an admission to LOKMANYA TILAK MUNICIPAL MEDICAL COLLEGE the following year. Life had not been so great ever…even today, I cannot believe it sometimes that I’m living my goal.

Days in medical college have not been so very kind to me….got ragged a lot among localites in the first year….and now because for some reason I’ve become one of the most misunderstood person in my batch…people think I have loads of attitude (I don’t deny it either),I’m arrogant, shrewd, having superiority complex, etc….I’ve never paid attention to such things and never will…I don’t really care what people think about me even without knowing me in person…making image about me even without actually interacting with me….Just because I’m very choosy about the company I keep, the friends I make ,talk very less but only sense…does not entitle me to such titles…I don’t want to be dictated terms as to how I should behave, the people whom I should talk to , act in a particular manner…I’m no slave…If you are good to me, I shall reciprocate…but I really hate the people who have the habit of being different in front of you and talking bullshit when I’m not around….As of studies ,I know I’m not working as of my real caliber…but I actually don’t want to now….When the time comes in final year and preparing for PG,I will get back in top gear…So all those people wanting to get me to change, I bet you’ll fail because if a day comes when I realize that I’ve made some mistakes in life, I will not need you to tell me what they were and how to be sorry for them.. I can deal with my own problems….

Anyways,I have enjoyed fully each day I've been to college,many a times alone but not lonely.Highest point of time in college was when BAND IGNITION performed at the college fest singing songs I had written myself….a dream come true for me…I’ve made a few great friends in college whom I love dearly…that’s all I need….Its better to have few true friends than to be friends with many false ones…

Looking forward patiently at my future….waiting to fulfill my UNREALISTIC dreams…living life to the fullest as I have always….

SOME LAST WORDS- I AM WHAT I AM , LET ME BE ME…….

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Friendship - The essence of Life.


Fortunately, my high spirit after my last article has remained intact (unlike what a few friends thought that it was impulsive and will soon wither off).After removing all negativities from life (deleting useless contacts from my mobile, removing not so good and back bitching friends from Orkut/Facebook, stopping to being negative and thinking I’m on the road to become a loser after all the hard work, etc ), I’ve once again begun to listen to my heart and my instincts like before as a result of which I feel I’ve just been reborn….a renaissance of life. My urge to winning, move ahead in life, chasing my goals is come back to its maximum… I feel such a stronger person now, optimistic, full of life still following my same old motto of living life to the fullest and enjoying every moment as it comes my way.

A thing I just can’t stop is a constant retrospection and introspection of my life, the fire that keeps me growing up as a person, teach new things and basically live every moment.. The people who have really brought out the best in me apart from my family, teachers have been my FRIENDS. I’ve been really blessed to have found a few real jewels, my true friends for life - in school, in junior college and now in my medical college……

I'm sure each of us meet a million people in our lifetime but how many of them fulfill our criteria of friendship ?Have you ever thought why friends come into our lives, some remain while a few walk away?....You might just find the answer in the next few lines to classify people we meet randomly……..

1)FRIENDS FOR A REASON– They comprise of the friends whom we meet for a short temporary phase of life ranging for a few minutes, hours, days or weeks. They are the people who fill the emptiness in life our lives by their presence. We feel their need and importance in our life, a need which we might have expressed and suddenly out of no where they enter our world like a GOD sent angel to assist us through our difficult time, guide us to the correct path and give us that extra support we need mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically. They are there by your side just for the reason you needed them to be.
Once they have made all the difference to our lives, becoming the reason of our smile,the friendship abruptly comes to an end. Without any wrongdoing on our part they DO or SAY something which hurt us, many a time they simply choose to walk away wanting us to bear the burden of life on our own or reasons they know best. What is important for us is that they came when we really needed them, they’ve done their work, fulfilled our desires and now the time has come to move on….

2) FRIENDS FOR A SEASON- They are the friends who are by our side in the ups and downs that life takes us through. They play the role of a teacher and a guide in the time when the others are busy to care and it is really up to us to grow as a person we want ourselves to be. They are there to teach us to share, learn and prepare for things in the unseen future. In their presence, we experience peace, happiness, calmness and feeling of security that SOMEONE IS THERE…Our world begins to revolve around these people and they give us an unbelievable amount of joy….

3) FRIENDS FOR A LIFETIME- These are the friends the relationship with whom give us the lessons for a lifetime. They help us to lay down our very strong emotional foundation. We love the person as much as they love us. Our only job is to put the lessons that we had learned from them all this while knowing them to use in all the other relationships and areas of life....making the fruits of friendship sweeter lasting till time ceases to exist.

What is in our hands is to decide which one is it for the people we randomly meet in our life, then we’ll realize what is to be done for that person. .I've decided for myself,you make your call........

Monday, August 11, 2008

Reality Struck !


It’s a cold Sunday evening and I’m standing in my window enjoying the rains, the cool wind blowing,and the little drops of rain that fall on my face occasionally…..I feel very calm and happy today…..After a lot of time thinking, I have finally decided to shed the false mask that I was wearing. I cannot anymore hide the true self that I’m, stop myself from being the real person I’m at heart. I want the world to see the face I was hiding for so long. I want the pages of the story of my life to be open to all and not become a subject of mockery and discussion acting like a person I’m not…..Now I just want to be true to every moment of life that comes my way…..

After hearing about the compulsory rural posting policy ,even I was struck equally harder as any of my medical friends , but I have this habit of thinking too much about life…so off lately had been feeling negative about medicine seeing my friends in other streams earning big and quickly…..But just yesterday I was at the college hostel sitting with my friends talking about life…. surprisingly ,discussing stuff which really pumped me again about the career I’m in….The thought that touched me the most was ,“If ever I repent coming to medicine ,I should just wear my doctor’s white coat ,put a stethoscope around my neck , go to the EMS and come out…..the staring eyes of people ,their expectations building up would be enough for me to get back to reality and feel lucky that I’m here”.That was enough to give me a lot of positive thoughts.

We are where we are today because we’ve all worked day and night for it…slogged it out and finally realized our goal. Many of us will agree that we wanted to be a Doctor to realize the sheer joy of being GOD’S TOOL .If we all have faith in GOD and his actions, then why do we ask for some evidence? Let things move on their own pace, the secrets of life unfold on their own…be thankful to be what we are and what we have…How many of us do that? I remember a small story that I had read in some value education book many years ago.A man after death reaches heaven, roams around and sees three departments there.The first one was the PRAYER RECEIVING DEPARTMENT, very busy and full with voices of “Dear GOD,I want this, I want that….”.Second was the PRAYER ANSWERING DEPARTMENT, equally busy. The third one which he would have just missed in the corner had a single angel sitting there…bored having nothing to do…On enqUiring he found out that it was the THANKSGIVING DEPARTMENT…touched? Think about it…This is what we all do, forget to be thankful for what we have while running behind for things we don’t have.

REMEMBER - If you think you’ve missed out on life, I suggest you slow down…you need not run behind it thinking it’s music won’t last ….enjoy the journey of life…its not a race. Lets go slower, hearing the music of life before the song of our life is over….I now realize that there are two kinds of aspiring people on Earth….There are Astronomers and there are the Astronauts…..The astronomers are the ones who stand by their lonely window with a telescope to gaze at the stars…The astronauts are the ones who reach for the stars and leave their footprints….Until now, I’ve been an astronomer…but I don’t want to be one now…..There comes a time in your life when you realize that if you stand still ,you will remain at this point forever ,if you fall and stay down, life will pass you by….I now feel to begin life all over again.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

The Unforgettable Tour.


ALL CHARACTERS IN THIS ARTICLE ARE "NOT" FICTITIOUS AND BEAR SOME RESEMBLENCE TO MANY PEOPLE LIVING AND NOT DEAD. READER'S DISCRETION IS ADVISED.
I was reading the Times of India the other day and was surprised to find a headline on the front page …..”BA HAS LOST MY BAGGAGE 18 TIMES”……as I read on ,I just found out that it was about the blog post of none other than the biggest superstar in Indian cinema, Amitabh Bachan……Now I Don’t have a problem with what he writes on his blog ,after all he has all the right like I’m enjoying mine writing this…. but what baffles me is that it makes it to a news of national interest….it is published in all the newspapers and shown in news channels around, British Airways coming up with apologies ,etc….As such ,the news media has no work these days but to talk about all comedy serials (I’m fed up from all of them, every news channel has some or the other cheap comedian trying to act as if he has cracked the best jokes ever with judges laughing to show their made up smiles and stained teeth in the camera on jokes they don’t understand and give them marks....really stupid) ,about daily soaps on their sister channel , crap from bollywood and about GOD showing all signs of his existence…..PLEASE ,STOP THIS SHIT…..
Mr.Bachan has been in the news these days for his blog and for going on an “UNFORGETTABLE TOUR” with his family and some other actors…..both these things had made headlines because there were reports that Amitji was not writing on his own but had it written by someone or being paid for writing his blog…Their TOUR'S STORY is for me to tell……
One day, jaya told Amitji…. “Aeji, I think we’ve become old now , Abkishek is also finally married after having all the fun with Dipanita Sharma and Karisma Kapoor and I now want to see the world , can you take me on a world tour ?” ……Amitji replied, “ All right ,but I suppose even Abhishek and Aishwarya have no work these days so lets take them along. I will arrange for the tour.People seem to be forgetting me because of no recent hit, lets name our tour THE UNFORGETTABLE.”
INTERMISSION

Their stroll around the world is all set now, they’ve all left…..roped in a few other stars and I was left wondering the reasons for them to take this break .After scratching my head for a long time ,I could come up with only these following hypothesis :-

1)UNEMPLOYMENT – Because of Mr.Bachan not inviting all his FRIENDZ (pun intended) from bollywood for his son’s wedding, everybody seems to be angry with him. They’ve all decided to boycott the junior B and prevent him from getting some work…Who cares anyway, he has given only few hits so far….guru ,bunty aur babli,sarkar,yuva…rest all bombed…So all of them are free now and Mr.bachan thought that may be his monthly budget will get balanced again if they can earn by dancing around at few places……I think, the family members can join some EKTA KAROOR'S television soaps…they are doing great these days and money is also good…..

2)PSYCHIATRIST ADVICE – Amitji has still not recovered from the shock of his great performance in RAM GOPAL VARMA KI AAG and his psychiatrist has advised him to go for a vacation.

3)RUNNNG AWAY – He seems to be running away from all the BHUDDHAS around chasing him asking him the tricks to woo a girl of your daughter’s age…..like he did in NISHABD AND CHEENI KAM…..lucky man he....aaj kal toh langoor hi angoor kha rahe hain...

4)MNS BREAK – He has been given “TIME PLEASE” by MNS leader to prepare for the second round of debating…..seeing the opportunity, cadbury break toh banta hai….

5)SPEND SOME MONEY – the Bachans have signed a Rs.1500 crore deal with adlabs….thoda paisa udda diya toh kya pharak padta hai ? 300 crore for Amitji,100 crore for Abhishek,100 crore for Aishwarya.......and 1000 crore for Amar Singh to stay away.

6)SERIOUS JOB – He seems to be taking his job too seriously of promoting IIFA and bollywood around the world….what other way than to dance around and catch some attention….

7)“JUNIOREST B ” – I am sure in an year or two , a new Bachan will soon join the family. So before they see all the painful time , a nice vacation was required.....

8)SON’S TRAINING – He has already taught Abhishek to copy him while acting in the movies….poor chap has no talent of his own…..these stage shows are the other pastimes……he should be taught that also…..COPYCAT BANNA HAI TOH PURA BANO NAA….

9)BORED - Amitji is bored of the hassles with his 'rivals' at home with some news cooking up every other day in the media and want to bore the international audience now...

MR.BACHAN ,I WISHED, YOU HAPPEN TO VISIT MY BLOG SOMETIME. (LIKE NAGESH KUKUNOOR ,the other day who asked me to contact him and has still been on the run…..Im still waiting for a call from you nagesh), ….all I wanted to do was remove my frustration of my exams coming up , but unfortunately you became the bakra….AND,PLEASE REMEMBER TO DRINK DABUR GLUCOSE BEFORE THE CONCERT AND ALSO GIVE TO OTHERS ....MAY BE IT'LL GIVE SOME EXTRA ENERGY TO YOUR OLD LONG LEGS.....

Friday, July 4, 2008

Loosing weight...hair by hair.

This article is dedicated to all my lovely hair which once sat on the anterior one third of my scalp but have now deserted me, the reason of which I’m not able to understand. Apoptosis is defined as a planned cell death…..but why did my hair cells have to go through this deadly process , I’m not able to answer.

Before giving up on life ,my hair used to be so happy being combed , liking the birds shit that would fall on them occasionally, stretching exercises when I would have a fight with my friends, etc ….with such lovely silky long hair then , even I used to think that I looked like the king of Bollywood SHAH RUKH KHAN ,from BAZIGAR….what a nice hair he had when he removed his helmet and shook his head to sprinkle all his sweat on the cameraman…..I miss those hairy days…..

Let me try to think of the various factors which might have just contributed to my new look :-

1) The hair roots on my scalp are unable to bear the pressure from inside by my ever expanding brain (thanks to me trying to fill it with all medical knowledge that I should have gained in 4.5 years in 1.5 years only).The brain is now acting as a space occupying lesion for my scalp and my poor hair have no choice but to give way.

2) The testosterone that should have been used in some other things at this point of age is accumulating due to me not being able to get time off studying and taking out its toxic effect on my lovely hair……At least its giving me the perfect look of male patterned baldness…cheers

3) My hair are no more getting the fertilizer of GELS that I used to apply in my childhood, thanks to spike hairstyle(remember dil chahta hai ?) getting famous all over then.

4) I am a Virendra Sehwag fan ,play cricket somewhat like him…..laga toh laga nahi toh gaya…..so my hair want to imitate his famous hairstyle now…..taklu

5) Off lately ,I’ve been scratching my head a lot thinking where I’m going to land in future…..my engineering friends at 21 have started to earn 50K a month and I’m still nowhere close to earning even half of it till I’m 28….Gosh.

6) I have still not managed to find myself the perfect girl who would have given my hair the extra nutrients and proteins required by passing her hands through my hair.Where are you DREAMGIRL ?

7) My head hair are jealous that my chest hair are getting special treatment of getting waxed to give me the bodybuilder look…..and I was a fool thinking only women are jealous of other women.

8) The other people who are bald want a high profile celebrity like me to be their style icon…..so may be unki buri nazar lag gayi hai….

9) God is very pleased with my friends…..nahi samjhe ? My friends call me SABU (the bald heavyweight friend of Chacha Chaudhary) , so may be God is working on me to give me a similar look…

I’ve now tried all sorts of creams ,oils , gels, minoxidil, etc but nothing seems to convince my hair to stay where they are……If they continue to commit suicide at a rate faster then the poor farmers in vidharbha,maharashtra , I will have no choice but to approach the ELVIS OF INDIA….HIMESH RESHAMMIYA, the singer with an extra ordinary talent of barking with his nose and ask him which company branded cap made his hair grow so long……If anyone of you already know the secret ,then I’m waiting to hear from you.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Medical Jungle


I really like to enjoy studying people…..Their faces reflects the misery ,the frustration,the sorry state of mind,a reflection of what’s going on in their ever working head .After spending about 3 glorious fun filled years in college, I’ve finally come close to classifying the organisms I see everyday….Don’t worry, I don’t intend to challenge microbiology….but develop a whole new branch of MEDICAL COLLEGE STUDENTS MACROBIOLOGY.

Everyday as I enter the college (don’t take the literal meaning of everyday. Ask my friends how frequent a visitor I’m to college) I’m looking around at people , I’ve been studying for some time now and found that they can be simply classified under the following headings :-

1) FRIENDZ – A friend is a person who kicks your butt , but still loves you….I’m sure this is true in medical college scenario. They are the best company for all those lonely souls who have not yet managed to find themselves a girlfriend or a boyfriend to spend the entire day with…..or really don’t bother to get into the stupid shit happening around….They love to spend time among themselves , have all the fun and all that too without being GAY…

2) BMC SWAP CARDS – These are the people you happen to say “ Hi ” in the morning or when you see them for the first time in the day (and think ….saala subah subah iska hee muh dekhnaa tha kya ? ) and a “Bye” with equally good feelings before leaving college….such a routine reminds me of the BMC appointed staff in the college and hospital who happen to swap their attendance card twice daily in the same manner…..once in the morning marking their attendance and once in the evening before going back home to get a much needed rest.

3) I SEE YOU –This is the third category of people we meet…you give them a look when you see them…your eyes meet but the lightning of egoism suddenly strikes both of you to even say “ hi’. It just reminds me of how we medical guys greet our dear PSM BOOK “PARK” ….sooner or later we do try to make an effort to patch up….

4) ENDANGERED SPECIES – This category of people are the ones who are hardly seen , hardly heard and are never there….Even the teachers after going through the attendance sheet wish they could come face to face with these exotic variety of people….ATTENTION:- beware from such fellow batchmates , after their hibernation period ends before the exams, some of the can manage to get the best hunt and end up becoming the king of the college jungle.

5) MAAF (a famous word in LTMMC) TYPES – These are the people you would love to avoid,hate and pull the leg of…but I’m sure they are the ones you would be interested in knowing every detailed gossip about ….to keep you afresh yaar…


And finally you would surely come across “NORMAL” people also who let life go on at its own pace without really worrying about what others are doing….I think I belong to this category but not all would agree in calling me NORMAL….. I JUST WISHED THEY COULD GET BEHIND MY EYEBALLS AND SEE THE WAY I LOOK AT LIFE….may be then they’ll understand.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Band Ignition


It was a cold Saturday night which had just changed our lives……a story which began with Me , Anand and Neal ,THE STORY OF BAND IGNITION……

I got a call from Neal on Friday evening ,he sounded enlightened when he spoke of realizing the bitter truths of life, the real faces of people ,the back bitching ,etc……motive was to get a break from the mirage of life.Im sure he would’nt have found a better person than the POSITIVE ENERGY POWERHOUSE ,that’s me (ha ha) to discuss such issues. .Even I was looking forward to a break after my dad’s surgery and the tough period I had gone through so called him over for dinner the next day .My next call went straight to Anand who was under the burden of some false allegations of which I’m not really sure of giving him a clean chit(joking nana)….he denied to come at first because of not being in a stable state of mind, but we were happy to get a call from him on Saturday at 5:00 pm that he really wants to come over.

We all met up, had dinner ……relaxed…..it was 10:00 pm by then .We then came upstairs to my room ,talked a lot of senti stuff….truths of life….etc. The mood was getting a bit depressing when I decided to show them my poems which I had recently written…Anand had my guitar in his hands, he was ramdomly strumming its strings…Neal reading aloud my poem “Mirror of my life”..and me enjoying the refreshing atmosphere.

Suddenly the God of muzik struck us. A tune came into Neal’s head and he asked Anand to play it(he can play a little bit of guitar…ha ha).Neal sang that poem’s first two lines like a song and here was the beginning of our night to remember .Every 5 minutes Neal could be seen running around my drawing room with ears closed thinking of the next line’s tune while Anand perfected the earlier lines and I made a few changes in the lyrics here and there….We were muzik struck completely ,Composing the entire song took us 6 hrs and we really did’nt realize how time went by and it was 4 am by then .At that time none of us had any words for what we had accomplished .Not wanting to, but we then went to sleep.

Next day, after the breakfast we did try to study a bit…..each of us sat in a different room but none of us had anything going in to our heads .We wanted to only compose some great muzik that day and at once jumped back to do that…..by around 6:00 pm Sunday ,we had managed to compose 3 original songs….all done.

What a time we had had those two days……its so very difficult to put them in words right now…..it was such a great feeling , we were on such a high …our mind was into muzik so much that we couldn’t think of anything else except our songs which I suppose were on autoplay in our heads and did not have a stop button .Each one of us had lost our concentration towards medicine and each one of us just wanted to be a ROCKSTAR.(don’t deny it guyz).Somehow we came over it but the hangover remained for the next two days…

Wednesday, I got a message from anand, “ Dude, how nice it would be to see tears in people’s eyes after treating a patient than to see people cry listening to our muzik .How about being a ROCKTOR ? “…………That was the original name of our so called band THE ROCKTORS.

Our college fest was coming close and we thought of performing there….we approached a few people who joined in and left us in between for good actually.Finally we did manage to get the right people and by then Suchitra ,Vidhur and Rahul had joined us and together we formed BANG IGNITION.

All the time of practicing , arguing ,fighting and pulling each others leg was a time to remember(what say guyz ? )…..then we got the big news, a chance to perform on stage.

Band Ignition really rocked that night at college fest and people could’nt stop talking about our great performance that evening.

Looking at the videos today,I do realize I might not have looked that great on stage that day being a host and standing there and clapping but what really cheers me is that when I introduced the band members , me being the last…..Maximum clapping and shouting were for me when I announced that I was the lyricist of the songs we performed….may be those claps will continue to encourage me to pen down more great songs in the future…Rest all is history.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

No cricket at LTMMC ?

Not long ago in august 2005 i decided to opt for a medical college tour and gave my CET exam to see if life would make me rich and famous like cricketers today . Surprisingly, the checking machine bided a whooping 189 marks for me and sent me to LTMMC to start my training here. Gosh….i didn’t believe it then because i had not paid even a penny to any of the selectors(that’s how the selection process goes on in BCCI these days)

While preparing for my CET fitness test,i was used to taking chikki runs but here i was among people who were constantly hitting boundaries ball after ball. Due to the sudden change in the level of play, i felt as if i was Mr.Sharad Pawar…..what would that poor guy have felt when out of nowhere from being the agriculture minister who had no knowledge about cricket ,he was made the BCCI chief and infact the ICC chief (maximum finance comes from India in world cricket)…still the job would have been the same….ram ram japna paraya maal apnaa…..on the first day of college itself ,we got the glimpse of senior players and the anti ragging committee who would make sure that there was no conflict between senior and junior players…..till date i wonder if they were of any good…

Soon our practice began and instead of practicing cricket, we were practicing running down the staircase to prevent being caught by any senior monkeys and get a taste of racial abuse. We practiced a lot and because of my huge size then like aaloo-apne inzamam bhai in those days ,i came prominently in people’s eyes. Soon there was this air building up that a new junior player has come who has loads of attitude and has to be met with personally. I then started getting lunch and dinner offers at the hotel….sorry hostel and people promised me that in the hostel darshan, I would be taken to each and every khopchas and will meet all the big bully players live in action...only thing was that I would be made the villain and the heroes would beat me up. At that moment I just thought that maybe I should have maintained a low key profile like Romesh Powar, a guy with a big belly and still eats away all the aggression thrown at him.

Things were still not fine between the junior and senior players even after we had become 9 months stale when the board announced that senior players wanted to give a fresher’s party. Soon we received our contract papers which looked like being set by some sexual pervert interested in knowing the sex life of other fellow colleagues. Though 100 contracts were signed, they said that only 6 people will be selected for the a grade contract. Looking at my popularity among the seniors then, I knew that i would be the star of the show. Results came in after a lot of dirty politics and much to my expectation ,i was signed for the maximum amount.

The boxing day came at the canteen square, with its electrifying environment and all the cheering which made me feel that I had waited for this day all my life….. Crazy people cheering and clapping for me . Since the beginning, it was a different game of cricket, different commentary and different strokes. Game started and all personal question bouncers were thrown at me at Shoaib Akhtar’s speed….I was clean bowled of the first ball ,a well delivered yorker, I didn’t know how to play with a glass and socks in the prop round. I was dejected for disappointing the crowd who had come to see me perform well so didn’t care how the game progressed.

The man and woman of the match was yet to be declared ,until then the paper ball bouncers continued. People then wanted we do a ramp walk for them like Bhajji , Dhoni,etc and soon a clearing was made among the crowd. That 3 min ramp walk I’ll remember for the rest of my life because i received the maximum patting and birthday bums that evening itself than I would have got my entire life .out of nowhere i got a punch at the place where all batsman wear a guard ,I had none so i passed out…..then my fans wanted a piece of my jersey ,in a flash it was gone off my body .it made me wonder how well mannered college gays…sorry guys were…I retired after that very first match and enjoyed the dancing and partying which continued.
Yet it was a great learning experience.

Next year, I took up the job of the commentator hosting the fresher’s party myself, though the paper ball bouncers and abuses continued……I still remember how fun it always was.

But now it seems that bad weather has stopped play at LTMMC. It’s been 2 years and junior players have withdrawn from the college tour, the student fund is making losses. The junior senior rapport is getting from bad to worse, the fun seems to be lost now………..i think maybe we need a change now, an IPL like concept where seniors bid for the juniors to get the player of their choice …what say guys ?

One day when the sun would set on our training period, I would look back and smile at the wonderful time spent in the college camp. I will cherish these memories all my life …..but life has to move on and i know deep in my heart that Sachin Tendulkar would be missed…..

Monday, June 2, 2008

Time to Pray ?

Standing by the side of her bed,
I and a small ganesha idol
looked into the eyes of a women in labour
her agony of pain,that restlessness
wet eyes which had seen three abortions,
how precious it was this time for her…..

Reciting the name of god in a flow
She could hardly wait for it to finally happen….
One final push and a baby boy was out
Cryin aloud ,
divine music to that woman's ear

Tears trickeling down her eyes
she hugged him and kissed him
as I and ganesha looked on
FINALLY A CHILD HAD GIVEN BIRTH TO A MOTHER………..

I still wonder to this day if God was himself there during the delivery using the doctor as his tool……..or was is the magic of the little prayers she kept mumbling during her pains?

Ever wondered the role of prayers in our life ? I’m sure each one of you would have definitely joined your hands and bowed before the Almighty sometime in your life….lets know about something different- PRAYING,a topic which we generally don’t talk about much in public because its something very personal and something we would want to keep to ourselves.

Praying to God is talking to the very creator of our existence. It is a means of communication designed to be faster than any other way to get in touch with God.He wants us to bring to him our burdens,our cares,our needs ,our dreams and our worries to him through prayers. Even though he sees and understands our situations better than us,he still wants to hear from us in our own words.


Ever thought of classifying prayers ? NO??..............then read on guyz……..

1)Prayer of praise (im sure he loves them)- We praise God for how nice he has been to us,how thankful we are to him for making us what we are and how wonderful he has been all this time.

2)Prayer of thanksgiving - We thank God for all the great things he does for us. He gives us life,family, food, clothing , home and friends in our lives to help us and to take care of us.Gosh, I’m waitin when he’ll give me a girlfriend.

3) Prayer of confession - telling God that we are sorry for what wrong we’ve done and that we are sorry that we did it.

4) Prayer for help- We ask God to keep us safe, to give us courage , or to give us the extra marks we need to pass.. Ha ha.. God always wants to hear from us when we are afraid or in trouble and need help.

5) The prayer, where we ask God to care for The prayer offered in faith, believing God hears and will answer. Believing God cares and is waiting to hear from us is just the beginning. We pray because prayer is powerful and it moves God’s heart.God is waiting to connect with each one of us.May be our selfishness and running behind “moh and maya” has created a dis-connect with God. He wants to connect with us and work powerfully in our hearts and lives through prayer.

I don’t claim to be a saint writing this but I have seen what a small prayer can do to your life. I’ll end with this qoutation- “What you are is Gods gift to you and what You make of yourself is your gift to god.”

Manzil - Believe in your Dreams.



This is one of the songs performed by band ignition at the Ashwamedh 08 and my favorite song that I've written till date........the lyrics of this song were written in an hour and half flat and i just think that if Nagesh Kukunoor would have read it before selecting Aashayein for Iqbal,may be he would have selected this song.....ha ha

Manzil hai, sapne hai
Aage hii badna tujhe…

Mushkil hai, aasha bhi
Naa kahin ruknaa tujhe…

Let’s believe in our dreams, so we shine like a star
There is nothing to stop, our goal is not so far
Let us join our hands & hope for the best
Leave our sorrows behind and God will do the rest

Tera lakshya pukare tujhe, tu chal udd kahin
Aandhi jahan roke tujhe, usse lad wahin
Tera lakshya pukare tujhe, tu chal udd kahin
Aandhi jahan roke tujhe, usse lad wahin

Let’s believe in our dreams, so we shine like a star
There is nothing to stop, our goal is not so far
Let us join our hands & hope for the best
Leave our sorrows behind and God will do the rest

Bharosa hai ghar par sabhi ko tujhpe
Tune sapne dikhaye unhe
Teri jeet pe maa ke aansu nikle
Papa gale lagaye tujhe…

Shikhar par hum pahuchen, jisko socha humne
Apna lakshya hai paya, yeh jaan lein sabhi
Bhara josh hummein, ek khwab hum sajayein
Chaaye laakh tufaan aaye, dare naa hum kabhi…

Let’s believe in our dreams, so we shine like a star
There is nothing to stop, our goal is not so far
Let us join our hands & hope for the best
Leave our sorrows behind and God will do the rest.

Tera lakshya pukare tujhe, tu chal udd kahin
Aandhi jahan roke tujhe, usse lad wahin

Let’s believe in our dreams, so we shine like a star
There is nothing to stop, our goal is not so far
Let us join our hands & hope for the best
Leave our sorrows behind and God will do the rest...

19.02.08

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Being Osama


The world now seems to be going through the worst financial crisis…markets falling everywhere, rupee becoming weaker day by day, banks becoming bankrupt and so on. To garnish the already wounded people, the terrorists all over seem to be celebrating some festival everyday for which they are bursting bombs like firecrackers each day at some part of the world or another….I think Osama bin laden should concentrate on other fields too than just using the internet to give signs of him being alive. The recent bomb blasts in various places in India and Pakistan has kept me wondering what I would have really done if I would have suddenly turned into Mr.Laden…..here are few of my crazy thoughts :-

1) Distribution of free pistols to children…..boys normally like guns, I would help replace the plastic ones with originals….as for the girls, I would come up with my own theme of a BARBIE DOLL AS A SUICIDE BOMBER.

2) Opening schools for promotion of terrorism –In my schools, I would make sure that after each period, a low intensity bomb explodes in place of the bell. My schools would offer practical training in all the latest technology in making bombs and using the most advanced weapons with regular updates. Our curriculum would also include teachings to hijack planes and nuclear scientists along with pictures of our old missions shown on a slide show. I would also get eminent terrorists to hold talk shows for encouraging my little future terrorists….in short do everything to get my INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL OF TERROISM an ISO 9001 CERTIFICATE…..and yes, free scholarships and a chance to study abroad in Pakistan for my toppers.

3) I would stand for the presidential candidate in the U.S in the future election…..If I am not selected, I will try my hand in Pakistan where I'm sure I will win…..Once I'm through I will try to get Afghanistan merged with Pakistan and name it LADENISTAN.

4) I will also start a LADEN TRUST OF FAMILY WELFARE to support the family of all those brothers who get mad after watching videos of me trying to teach them WORLD PEACE but surprisingly end up becoming terrorists.

5) Lastly, I will request the MEDICAL COUNCIL OF INDIA to make it compulsory for medical interns to get training in my camps after their 3 months of PSM posting because my studies indicate that after the posting, interns feel like going nuts and the wild animal in them wakes up…..I shall provide them with free placements and lucrative jobs for treating my terrorist brothers in Afghanistan and Pakistan.

Enough of these wild thoughts……I am a deep thinker, so was just wondering where the world was going from now….. I am happy to be on the road to become a doctor AND SAVE LIVES than be an illiterate terrorist who kills innocent people in the name of jihad……LONG LIVE HUMANITY !

Flight to Heaven.


I want to fly like an angel
To the heaven of my dreams

I want to reach the sky
And feel the blue and greens…
I want to roam the milky way
Travelling from stars to moons
I want to live every moment
Until my happy mind blooms…

I want to fly like an angel
To the heaven of my dreams

The flight may be testing
And break a wing or two
With those broken wings I’ll ascend
To touch the golden dew…

I want to fly like an angel
To the heaven of my dreams

With fire burning to reach my goal
Promise would be kept, I belief
One day my heart & chirpy soul
Will see the calmness of relief…

I want to fly like an angel
To the heaven of my dreams

22/05/07

Mirror of my Life.



Talking to imagination
Never knew that love was blind
Your touch reminds me the warmth
I always tried to find…

You’re the mirror of my life, I’m in love with you
If you seek that smile again, I’ll be there for you

Lost in your eyes, trying to find me
Thinking about you, all the time
Feeling your smile my sweet desire
Days we spent were so fine

You’re the mirror of my life, I’m in love with you
If you seek that smile again, I’ll be there for you

Missing you my love, please come back to me,
Wanna see those days back again
Trust me I’m still the same you know of
And the love still remains

I know that you miss me also
Lets get back and start again
This time I promise, I’ll not hurt you
My heart stopped beating since you went

Run through the doors of heaven my love
Fly to the moon where I’ll meet you
There we’ll stay together always
Coz deaths not there to meet us soon

You’re the mirror of my life, I’m in love with you
If you seek that smile again, I’ll be there for you

01/07/07

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Love in Search



Hi ! I am love
In search of a heart
Where I can make my home
& like a flower bloom

But when I knocked
At the heartdoor of a rich man,
It was locked
By the lock of ego and money…

But when I knocked
At the heartdoor of a politician,
It was locked
By the lock of corruption…

But when I knocked
At the heartdoor of a common man,
It was locked
By the lock of sufferings…

I was sinking in a sea of disappointment
But then came a boat, with a young heart
Alas ! I got an appointment…..
It was like a little cozy hut under a huge tree
With a sign in front of it,
Which read that the entry was “free”.