Lost & found.

For the first time in life I feel like an aimless boat without its oars, drifting in the ocean. There is no desire, no determination…. Only one thought to make it big in life, but I don’t know how.

Here at KDAH, I have a dream life… working 16-17 days a month out of which 7-8 are night shifts, that makes it 20-21 effective days I get to be me. My days are spent doing things I always hoped I would be doing when I grow up be it playing music, writing, sports, watching movies, spending time with family, etc and would continue all my life. The job satisfaction is immense to be working at one of the best Emergency centers in the country.

At 25 years of age, I feel as if I have done it all… no regrets, no mistakes…not boasting or exaggerating about myself but it needs to be expressed so I can smile reading this when I gift myself my ‘Printed Blog’ in the form of a book on some birthday of mine in years to come. Only a happy thought that I have lived 25 wonderful years living a dream of achievements. Looking at old photographs, watching videos, a glimpse of all certificates, the coin & stamp collection, mark sheets, etc fills my heart with happiness…. I really have lived a different life, in my own world feeling the sense of satisfaction…relief…salvation…seems like the philosophy of a dying old man about his life.

I guess its time to change, leave things behind as they were, move onto something new…I really want to travel a lot, go on an adventure trip, meet new like minded ‘different achievers’ from all walks of life, meet people looking for their purpose in life…I don’t want to be tied down by family, society, money, materialistic love…Its going to be just me and my freedom to express, be creative, feeling the human spirit…the adrenaline rush to be who you are…Dear life, bring it on!  

Story of FREE SPIRIT- The Blog.

It all started 4 years back with a way to relieve the stress of the day to day hectic medical life by pouring my heart out. Facebook was not so popular then and ‘Blogging’ was the favorite writer’s pastime ( now taken over by Facebook Notes). Necessity is the mother of all inventions and so the ‘ Free Spirit’ was born. This blog post is dedicated to this blog, an inanimate best friend & girlfriend of mine whom I have shared everything with in past few years.

I have opened up my life here, my journey over the years with all the ups and downs I have been through. It is the bare naked truth, the open book of my life. Poems, songs, articles, plays…. Didn’t know I could be so versatile. Sometimes when I read my own posts, I’m surprised if I wrote them, some of them really are heart touching.

Growing up from a boy who was denied admission in a school just because I came from a Hindi medium school during my KG classes, to being a doctor and writing so much has been an immensely satisfying journey. Writing had never been a hobbie and was limited to the exams and essay & poetry writing competitions in inter house competitions at school.

This talent that I have nurtured over the years has now reached its peak and I’m madly in love with my brain child Faking News: Doctor’s lounge. It really is doing great and I love coming up with medical satire which is being read by medical and other professionals all around the world. I had close to 14000 visitors on this blog in last 4 years but with more than 1.1 lakh visiting the Facebook page and more than 300 fan following in 5 months is a proof of Facebook’s outreach.

80 % of all articles have been written in a dead of the night when I’m in a trance like psychotic state (without influence of alcohol or drugs as life itself gives me a high) including this one which I’m writing sitting in the medical social worker’s room in KDAH at 1.25 AM.

Life really has been a party ever since I passed MBBS and I’m living the dream. Job, studies, writing, music, swimming, tennis, long drives, biking, traveling, etc…there is so much I’m doing and it reflects on my personality and energy. Other plans in pipeline include learning salsa, calligraphy, numerology, palmistry, teaching, social work, LFS alumni stuff and many other unplanned surprises life has to offer.

I really hope this journey continues and I can come up with more creative articles to maintain the high quality and standard I have set over the years for my style of writing.

All I live for is the adrenaline rush, the thrill, the peace and happiness…. I only want to be remembered for who I really was. The day I have a meeting with God, I’m sure ‘We’ will be looking down with a smile on our faces thinking ‘the Free Spirit partied like a Rockstar’ living the ideal life of a good human being.