Its been a great year of blogging....I personally did enjoy writing every article till date...the last exams for completing M.B.B.S coming up in about 20 days...So signing off from all active blogging, internet, television, newspaper, guitar, etc.....
Next post on 1st Jan, 2010.....Love.....Mohit :-)
A FEW RANDOM WORDS FROM MY FRUSTRATED, SATURATED BRAIN, DUE TO THE PRESSURE OF THE LAST MBBS EXAMS...
I came here with my rosy dreams
In my mind I had the wonderland themes
The scene would be great I always thought
To act God when life and death fought…
But now, I’ve realized that
Being a doctor is so very tough
Struggling to pass makes the journey all rough
Frustrated you get, psycho you act
Also final year makes you so very fat…
You feel pushed back, as the world walks past
And I’m counting days as it ends at last..
...45 days to go for the last battle with MUHS university in MBBS….hope I get freedom from my tormentors soon..the exams....forever
Oh yes, a few words for a handful of people in college too....whom I can never forgive….
There was a time when I was sad
It was due to the bad time that I had
Depressed I was, you people thought
You laughed over me, abused me, as I fought…
Yeah, looking back on time, it was a long pause
But now I’m back, to the person I was
My confidence is back, my head held high
The change is prominent, you people ask why…
“You guys suck”, I want to tell them
Have you had a life anytime, when?
It is my time now, taste the bitter ginger
Critics, I show you my middle finger….F#@K off !!!
Dedicated to God - My strength, my teacher, everything that means to me in life.
Through these few lines, I just want to thank him from the bottom of my heart for adding some colors back again to my life…I had really forgotten to smile, fighting…..
When I needed someone, you went to hide
There was no one, by my side
Was there a reason, I needed that help
Fighting through the odds, all by myself
Down my cheeks, the tears rolled
As time went by, I was growing old
But the faith remained in my heart,
You’d come back, for a new start
To prove again that I was right,
You held my hand in this fight
In my heart, forever you stay
Don’t ever let go is all that I pray….
My frustration has crossed its limits after so much time of remaining away from CREATIVITY while preparing for my prelim exams coming up in about 20 days…so thought of coming out of my blogging hibernating shell to write a few words.
A thing that I keep wondering time and again and have tried to find an answer to is, “Are we all schizophrenic, are we all having a split personality, being 2 minds in 1 body? ”… Over my experience of 22 years with the little psychological and spiritual knowledge that I have, I think the answer to that is in the affirmative….not all of you might agree to it…but nevertheless.
We all have both, the Devil and the God within us. On a rough day with nothing going our way, after a fight or an argument with a friend or a family member, after scoring not so good marks, etc…..the frustration that builds up, brings out the devil in you. He is the one who makes you unhappy, feel alone, lonely and tells you how sad a person you are. That is the time you feel the need of “ a someone” to talk to, to shout at, to get your frustration out…then you try to look back in time ….happier times….sad times…time spent…life lived …which makes you sulk even more. The only good thing I think about the devils expression within you is that it makes the person more artistic to express himself… with aggression…with sorrow…mixed feelings… For a writer, it reflects in his words…. for a painter, in his colors and so on.
On the other hand, the God within makes you a confident cool dude…be a charming person, people enjoy your company at the time you are smiling, making others smile…you are vibrant with positive energy. After all, who wants to be a company to a broken, sad, lost out soul? The God within makes you feel good about yourself, be at peace with the world around, the work you do in the day, enjoy the daily routine…spend the day without a fuss, any argument …and in the end, gift you a night, well slept.
I am writing this because I’ve been going through a lot of mood swings these days…Long hours of studies, lack of recreational activities makes me think life is so boring, mundane…and to add to that, my increasing weight and puffy face sitting at home, my sinking eyes having to study all day and my increasing baldness make me more frustrated at times making me want to run away from this field of medicine…so I look towards extra-curricular activities like blogging, guitar ,photography ,etc and end up wasting a lot of time….after all, everyone deserves a break for themselves which is very difficult to manage in the life of a final year medical undergraduate. There is so much I want to do in this life “which begins so late but ends so quickly”….For some reason, I am in a hurry to begin life early...spend time driving, riding, playing tennis with my best friend Aniruddha, making music with band ignition, writing, gymming, photography, painting, dancing…it’s a long list.
But the next moment I realize that if I stop looking for happiness in such extra-curricular activities and study a bit more, may be I can save 1 extra life!!...after all I’ve worked so hard to be where I am today.
I am desperately looking for the solution to such oscillating thoughts in my pendulum brain… God, please help me find“ The Middle Path” – Be ENLIGHTENED.
This was my jingle that got me the second prize in the INDIAN ASSOCIATION OF PAEDIATRICS jingle making competition on ORS (oral rehydration solution) –OFFERS THE REAL SOLUTION.
Bache ko ulti hai, dast bhi hain
Body mein paani kam hai
Sukhi hai, aakhen bhi
Bacchu bhi bahut nam hai
Toh ORS ghar mein laao
Ek litre paani mein milao
Bache ko tum pilao
Improvement dekhte jaao
Kyunki, Body mein jab ho Sodium,potassium ki kami
ORS har jagah milta,sabke liye sahi
Toh ORS ghar mein laao
Ek litre paani mein milao
Bache ko tum pilao
Improvement dekhte jaao
Bharosa hai doctoron ko bahut ispe
Kitni jaane hain isne bachai
Ulti dast se nipatne ki hai yeh
Sabse sahi davai
Sarkari asptaal mein aao
Apne bacche ko dikhlao
Sahi ilaj phir tum paao
Aur muft mein ORS le jaao
Kyunki, Body mein jab ho Sodium,potassium ki kami
ORS har jagah milta,sabke liye sahi
Toh ORS ghar mein laao
Ek litre paani mein milao
Bache ko tum pilao
Improvement dekhte jaao
Improvement dekhte jaao
Improvement dekhte jaao……
Hi Friends …..It all started as a coincidence that I found 3 poems written way back in 2002 with which I started this blog…Gradually, over the last two years, it developed as a hobby and it became a part of my life …I told you guys that I would come up with something good by the end of this month, but I’m sorry to say, that it won’t happen….this seems to be my last post for this year…Suddenly it has hit me that I have only 2 months remaining for my prelim exams and I have the entire final year portion to finish. I am sure that like me, many of you too feel that there are two paths that life shows you…one is the path that you really want to walk and the other is the one you should walk….till now, I walked the path that I wanted to but I realized that it keeps me away from the commitment that is required in the profession of a doctor…I think that my temporarily stopping to blog (which I consider very close to my heart) might just help me become a better doctor…Look at the photo above, can you guess whether it’s a sun rise or a sunset? People, wait until January because in the new year the sun will rise again on my blog, till then, its time for sunshine to light my road to be a good doctor.. Signing off….Love…..mohit....
Hey readers, really very sorry…..thanks for complaining that off lately my blog has become more and more personal….the usual flavors about various aspects is long missing….my posts reflect too much only about my life and the way I feel… It may be just because I was trying to push myself for the final 7 months of turmoil remaining to finish with my basic M.B.B.S course….. I may have become monotonous lately coz I’ve not been watching television, or reading newspapers for a long time now(the secret of my inspiration to write), no time for it actually… Exams coming up…will surely keep myself updated about current events after that..…and will not write about LIFE for a long time now ….. So wait on people till around 29th of this month, when my written exams end…will surely come up with something you’ll all love….catch you all later ….. Wish me luck…
12 days to go for my mid term exams…..I am studying, but with a shallow heart…I feel a sense of emptiness in life, a sense of missing something…..just now I got a message from my teacher & my friend Dr. Prayag (who I know one day will be one of the best cardiologists in India, I know ,he will) which said, “I want to go back to the time when getting high meant on a swing…when drinking meant apple juice…when dad was the only hero…when love was mum's hug…when dad’s shoulder was the highest place on earth…when the only thing that could hurt were wounded knees…when the only things broken were toys…when goodbye meant only till tomorrow…now we realize life has changed so much.” …..tears trickled down my eyes….this is what I was feeling…. I found the answer to my emptiness…this is what I’ve missed.
Today, my grandfather fights for his life everyday with congestive cardiac failure with LVEF of 20 % post two myocardial infarctions, bilateral renal artery stenosis , chronic renal failure, hypertention, diabetes…. Still after his angioplasty I am here 1400 km away….on the road to be a doctor…helpless…my tears don’t stop…I tell my family there to be strong…..but deep down I’m scared of the reality…the sun sets in everyone’s life one day.16 years that I’ve been in Mumbai, I don't even remember spending 100 days with him, yet I remember every moment spent with him…..today when I should have been by his side, the tough path of medicine that I chose is not so flexible to give me too much time…a medical undergraduate’s life is demanding.
A person doesn’t feel so bad when he does not have something in life but it feels worst when he has something and it goes away…this is what happened to me….I am not looking to sympathy…but it did not stop me…it only gave me strength, more courage to fight life…I realized that this is what life is and this is how it is meant to be…a fight to the finish….I studied hard all these years in spite of all the hassles in life ….to be on the road to fulfill a dream that I saw since school ….but feeling sorry for what all this hard work and my tough times have taken away from my life…..my childhood, the time I should have spent with my family, playing without worry, a sense of everything being perfect, a feeling of a father telling his son, “ Don’t worry, I’m there”….I didn’t get it….my parents, my brother were going through the turmoil too....I kept working harder with a smile on my face, burying the tears… I wore a false mask…but continued the journey ….walking the path only in hope of good time in the future….
6th February'2007, my dad got a heart attack…10th February midnight ,I remember standing outside the ICU receiving calls for my birthday as I cursed God for the Birthday gift that he had sent me….my world had broken apart, all dreams shattered…Over the period that followed, I had broken down to the core …depressed….. Next two years, I was no longer interested in my studies….I couldn’t take it any longer…the real Mohit had slowly been smothered by life….but today, with things looking better and thanks to few of the God sent angels in my life (they know that), I feel like getting back to what I was…to be the real me….the kind of person I am from mind, body, heart and soul…..
But the feeling of the missing pieces in my life’s puzzle will always remain because I know that time is gone, never to come back again…..leaving memories…forever…I wish I could go back in time to relive those lovely moments that have become history....I wish I could :(
Sick of hiding behind my false mask
Where will life take me is all that I ask
Thinking and crying that I’ve been outplayed
Time to rectify too many mistakes that I made.
It took me so long to find the leading light
My dark side laughs over my sorry plight
Confused and shattered my heart is in pain
Time to pick the pieces and start all over again.
I took it so lightly
Walked through it blindly
Not realizing what it meant
Crying now only to repent
Why did I act like a fool
Forgetting my dream since school
Running behind applause and fame
Were the hardships I faced,to blame?
Too expressive was then the child in me
Away from reality why did I be?
I shall toil now with determination and fire
I pray, I conquer my deepest desire.
-TO BE A CARDIOLOGIST ONE DAY.
One night when his charge was pretty high, Micro Farad decided to try to get a cute coil to let him discharge. He picked up Millie Amp and took her for a ride in his megacycle. They rode across Wheatstone bridge, around the sine wave and stopped in a magnetic field by a flowing current. Micro farad, attracted by Millie's characteristic curves, decided to engage in a little mutual inductance, and soon had her resistance at a minimum and his field fully excited. He laid her on the ground potential, raised her frequency, lowered her capacitance, and pulled out his high voltage probe. He inserted it into her tank circuit, connecting them in parallel, and began to short circuit her shunt. Fully excited, Millie Amp cried, 'MHO, MHO, it Hertz, but give me MHO'. With his tube operation at maximum amplitude, and her coil vibrating from the current flow, they soon reached plate saturation and found their cut-off point. The heavy current flow had gotten the anodes of her tubes hot and Micro farad was rapidly discharged and drained off every electron. They fluxed all night, trying various connections and sockets until his bar magnet had lost all of its field strength and her grid was leaking. Afterwards, Millie Amp tried self induction and damaged her solenoids. With his battery fully discharged and his contacts corroded, Micro farad was unable to excite his generator, so they ended by reversing polarity and blowing each other's fuses...
I’m a mind freak doing what I like
I’m a mind freak cruising on my bike
I’m a mind freak flying like a bird
I’m a mind freak unplugged from the world
Don’t tell me I’m different, I know that’s a fact
Had been always like this & weird I don’t act
The hidden stranger in me is what I want to find
You can too open the doors to your closed mind
I’m waiting, don’t know when our company ends
Feel so happy that we’re not the best of friends
Why you say, I’ve changed over the last few days
It’s just that I’ve stopped living my life your ways
I’m a mind freak doing what I like
I’m a mind freak cruising on my bike
I’m a mind freak flying like a bird
I’m a mind freak unplugged from the world
This article….no its not an article…its my current frame of mind and I didn’t want to miss writing about it because I know it is what will keep the fire burning within me…..off lately, I’ve been feeling great…..in fact on a high every moment of my life….These days I just feel that the free spirit that I claim to be (many don’t like it …but I don’t f*****g care about it) has been unleashed…..I feel stronger more than ever and really want to take life by its horns….may be it’s the hangover of living life everyday while I go to college on my cruiser bike…my love…. whom I call ‘Mercedes’..or post Band performance at the college festival….we did really rock.
I just feel that these days, I’m letting my soul show on my personality…this is who I was always and I am……care free….living every moment…leading a life where there are no rules…following what I preach, “APNA KAAM BANATA, BHAAD MEIN JAAYE JANTAA”…..doing what I feel like….not suppressing any of my deep desires of writing ,music ,driving ,riding ,playing ,photography ,etc … loving to be hated by some geeks…Later laughing over them, it hardly matters to me…being the bad guy…..MISCONCEPTION FOR MANY ?? …..LOOKS CAN BE DECEPTIVE…..may be that is what life means to me and I want to live it this way……WITHOUT CARING FOR THE WORLD AND THE INNOCENT ANGELS THAT LIVE IN IT…..WELCOME TO MY WORLD.
Today,I make life a promise, that I will always give it a tough fight…no matter however hard it tries to pull me down, I will never give up…..tough times don’t last, tough men do…..I have now put my past of sufferings, hardships behind and begun all over again with new aggression and a fire within my self. May be those lessons were ways of God to give me the best education possible with only one teacher….LIFE….from whom I’ve learned EVERYTHING till now….
I want to fulfill many dreams for my family and myself which remain unfulfilled for a long time….I have been lucky enough to have found the best pillars of support that I could…..My family , my teachers who keep reminding me of the potential that still remains to be tapped and very few friends (I choose to keep the list of friends very short…14-15 to be precise)……today I aspire to see myself as a cardiac surgeon or a cardiologist one day, have a house at Bandra seaside with a black Mercedes Benz parked in the garage…a big house with a music room ,gym ,temple ,billiards ,tt….and what not….Waiting for all of them to be fulfilled one day….I know I will….
I wish god could be a visitor on my blog because I want to say him a big THANK YOU …..for not giving me many things…..and giving me everything, everyone that I wanted in my world…TO BE HAPPY…..NO MATTER WHAT……
Continuing walking the road alone with memories and humming MY SONG….YOUR SHADOWS ALONE FOLLOW YOU…..
Firstly, for all science students, I have not discovered a new method to mix sodium ,potassium or calcium with a fatty acid to make a SOAP…..Until a few years from now, I only knew the word Serials for daily Nautanki…but the media now seems to have popularized the words DAILY SOAPS for serials. So this article is dedicated in memory of the great SOAPS that have come and gone and many which are still being aired & continue to haunt me in my dreams!
Basic ingredients to make a soap :
1)A producer with lots of extra money and guts in his ass to risk them for JUST ANOTHER TV RAMLILA.
2)One nursery ABCD alphabet book and a numerologist- to give the soap a name and a date & time to begin shooting.
3)One big SUPER RICH JOINT FAMILY, as big as you can imagine with husband, wife, brothers, sisters, mama, mami, chacha, chachi, tayaa, taayi…..every damn relation in a family that you can think of….all living together….and many more visitors ,from everywhere.
4)One female protagonist who is EKDUM PERFECT BAHU- always talks and thinks like an experienced DAADI AMMA, looks sexy in a sari….takes care of everyone and a stupid lady who prays to God for everything in her life. And God too only listen to her prayers in the family….as if he doesn’t have any more disciples.
5)One female villain (male villains are in films, at home entertainment level, we have female villains)….wicked by nature….odd sense of dressing up…big ugly bindis….does not like a peaceful house and is always planning to usurp the family property.
6)One grand grandmother played by a not so young actor…mostly bed ridden or on the wheel chair, loves the female protagonist a lot, can’t do much to save her from the acts of wickedness by the villain.
7)One tip top Naukarani, loaded with artificial jewellery and make up. Acts as a Special advisor to the villain.
8)Two- three kids to waste time showing their fights or artificial play…..as if we find them funny.
9)A sad lyricist for those sad songs and an equally sad singer….to bark on music.
10)And how can we forget the makeup man…to give them the perfect look with lipstick and mascara even if they go for a condolence meeting.
11)Other side actors to play police officers, plastic surgeons and lawyers who are required occasionally.
Method of preparation : Mix all these ingredients in whatever proportion you like, keep varying their amount from episode to episode…….show them celebrating all festivals that appears in an yearly calendar……occasionally kill a character in an accident, never show the dead body, to have him back after a few episodes with short term amnesia, or plastic surgeons working hard to give him a look which is impossible to do by we doctors…….let all this cook for a long long time and when you think its burning, TRPs falling and channel harassing the producer to be pulled out due to the people getting bored….one just needs to take 10-20 years time leaps…..till new dadiammas are trained in that house…generations after generations..finally the SOAP is ready to serve.
Garnish with long adds and serve to stupid audience who torture their kids with such nonsense running continuously at prime time……
You too can prepare your own SOAP STORY with my guidelines.
Any budding story writers reading this??
(NOTE-An old article which I found scribbled in one of my old diaries,so thought of putting it up.Its not my current frame of mind, I've come over it...long time.)
This article will not make sense to all, it is meant only for those who identify with it….
How many times have people tried to influence you, to tell you how difficult you are, what mistakes you make, you shouldn’t have done something, you got a big mouth, you live in a world of your dreams away from reality, you are this….and that.
Do you think you should even listen to such crap or does it even matter to you?
Not to me at least and many of you ,I know, who would after reading this may just even rethink…may be this is what you wanted.
Each and everyone of us come from a different culture, different background, different lifestyles, different past and each one of us is unique to ourselves……Each one of us is not a person but an entire World in ourselves…. I don’t think it is wrong to be in one’s own world if it makes life worth living…..I JUST BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE UNHAPPY THAT YOU ARE HAPPY IN YOUR WORLD….Live life the way you want, do what you feel is right, enjoy every moment even if you are alone, but not lonely…most importantly BE YOURSELF, ALWAYS !
Final Year ab aa gaya hai
Padhai kaa maahol chaa gaya hai
Main bhi kar raha hoon lay ki khooj
Isliye pahunch jaata hoon jaldi library roj.
Harrison,Baily padne ko kahten hain sabhi
Manipal,Mathews par atkaa hoon abhi
Inn ke prakop se log kya bach payenge
Baag mein sabhi apni aukaat par aa jayenge.
Aajkal toh ghar kaa khana bhi nahin khataa hoon
Din bhar main college mein hee paaya jaata hoon
Phir bhi vajan bad raha hai mera,Shayad BMR kam ho chalaa
Tabhi toh soochu kaise ho gaya 75 se main 90 bhalaa.
Posting ,clinics se main pak gayaa hoon
Train kii bhid se thak gayaa hoon
Life mein mazeee ki badi kami hai
Saala apni toh koi girlfriend bhi nahi bani hai.
Na jaane kab hoga yeh final year khatam
Kab banenge hum bhi MAMA INTERN
Tabh patient bhi humse khush rahenge
Jab humbhi khud ko Doctor kahenge
Jab humbhi khud ko Doctor kahenge
Life and Death play a game of hide and seek….while death is counting in the heavens, life finds a place to hide IN A FAMILY..…..only to be caught by death one day.
Being at the hospital everyday, I get numb many a times to see people die ..relatives thinking that the doctors are heartless when they declare a person dead….but that’s the way life is…with such a thought I draw this analogy.
When I light the ‘JYOT’ in the ‘diya’ everyday to pray, I see life being born (neonate).It slowly fights to light up throwing some tantrums until it becomes steady (infant to childhood).Soon the flame starts to rise, become bigger, glows brighter to reach it full height, cover up the entire cotton ball (adulthood)…and slowly gets blown out, with a smoke……in which I see Death.
Another year when Band IGNITION rocked the crowd at ASHWAMEDH ’09 and proved to be better than the Marathi night or the celebrity night with the Band of Boys….As I looked at the videos again, if feels so very good to see the crowd dance to our tunes…Personally for me ,it feels great to hear one’s own words being sung (I might sound to be self obsessed)…but a still greater feeling when we were appreciated for our hard work….someone comes up to ask for the videos, lyrics, etc…The best complement that we got was one from our college watchman, a person who would not have understood more than 15 min of our 1 hour rock packed performance come and say, “khoob changla kela hoto tumhi”.
I really believe there is no better feeling than being applauded….that is truly what I yearn for in my life. Be it studying, writing, music, drawing, photography, debating,…everything that I can think of…Who doesn’t want recognition? I believe that one should not grow linearly in only a particular field (eg. medicine) but in all directions…Why not tap your talents and potentials now than to regret later when the time is all gone?...It might come at a cost now but the sweet music of applause will cover it all up.
Enlightened I feel to the core
Enjoy life’s gifts ask for no more
The root cause of a life on fire
Lies in having a burning desire
Life’s a marathon unlike a sprint
Showing the doors God gives many hints
I see myself at the starting line
This journey starts again, it looks so fine
I am not the Buddha to be telling you this
Just peeped inside on what did I miss
Keep working hard on what you ever wanted
Believe in yourself and the wish will be granted
Till now I was sulking, kept feeling low
I am just another seeker, I came to know
Always optimistic like now, I want to stay
And save many lives is all that I pray….
The blogosphere seems to have caught up with 25 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME……I couldn’t stay behind either…..so here they are:
1) If my parents would have allowed, I would have been an air force pilot…..I love speed and all the craziness of a midair stunt.
2) I love to study life everyday….smile over little things that I come across…learn from them….study people’s faces in packed local trains…but never complain, because that’s life…
3) I am calm and quiet most of the time….but once I loose my temper, I would scare the shit out of the other person.
4) I am a good leader…I loved being a class monitor ,a House vice prefect, head boy and now the president of my school alumni…..I wish I could join politics one day.
5) I do not open up to everyone easily….it takes time for me to really trust people, let them be my friends and peep into my world.
6) I want to buy myself a black Mercedes Benz sometime in life before I die.
7) I am always scared of loosing people really close to me….something happening to them though I am used to seeing people go through really sad times in the hospital everyday.
8) I love attention…..and I try to showoff sometimes.
9) I really love the Indian culture….the diversity of religion and the women in Indian outfits…I wish to be reborn here itself in the valley of the Gods.
10) I am very sentimental and emotional person, sometimes I feel hurt on trivial things.
11) I am a very good writer ,poet ,sportsman ,photographer, musician and singer…..apni badhai nahi kar raha hoon main.
12) I love to look into the mirror time and again….not to see my looks but to peep into my crying eyes for the times I have seen in life that really pushes me hard.
13) I love my friends a lot….make them all feel really very special…..I am really very choosy because I never want to be betrayed and feel I made a wrong choice anytime.
14) I am very religious…I find peace in going to a temple ,a church, a gurudwara or a mosque….Only religion I believe in is Humanity.
15) I have utmost respect for all my teachers…..they have really brought out the best in me to excel.
16) I always feel that my school-Lokhandwala Foundation School was responsible for bringing out my every talent ….along with my hard work,it has contributed in making me what i am today.
17) I hate to see people smoking and generally get down from a rickshaw with a smoking co-passenger. Though I have tried 6 puffs till now.
18) I am a perfectionist…..also love to see things clean and tidy….my room ,books ,study shelf ,bed every thing will always be arranged properly….though I am not suffering from obsessive compulsive disorder..
19) Many times I feel that I am missing out of life due to these long years in medicine..that I have have a tough road ahead….but I love the respect I get in being on the road to be a doctor.
20) I am sometimes very moody and impulsive….I do things that I later regret.
21) Back bitching, cheap talks really put me off…..and so do people who make an image about me without even knowing me.
22) I can take a lot of grief with a smile on my face and later cry about it.
23) I have never had a girlfriend….though I am open to the idea of falling in love….got no time for it really.
24) I am really proud of what I have achieved in life till now….love to look at my 70 odd certificates, medals and trophies again and again to pump me up for the future.
25) I am always cautious about things I do in life because I don’t ever want to be a bad son or a bad brother….I only exist to give my parents everything that they ever asked.
Kyun aaye wo sarhad paar se
Dil royen hain unke waar se
Gharon ke bhuj gaye chirag ye
Kyun faili hai ab yeh aag re.
Jindagi ho gayi hai ab sasti
Kyun aasuon pe maut hai hasti
Khoon ki nadiyaan har jagah thi faili
Goliyon ki goonj jb joor se boli
Jihad kya unhe yahi sikhata
Kaun hai jo unhe zahar pilata
Yah sab vinaash nahi ho paata
Kaash koi unhe insaan banata
Kaash koi unhe insaan banata.
18 February/2009- The Times of India
“ Med PG aspirants may not have to sit for entrance exam.”
I woke up that morning and was shocked to read this piece of news that within the next two years, PG CET is likely to be scrapped. The feeling of anger immediately took over me….I felt like being smothered and betrayed by the State Govt. Why is it that only DMER Maharashtra alone comes up with such heart braking ideas…..demoralise us as future doctors .CET is platform where all of medical aspirants are given a common platform to prove our worth. Is it the high percentage during UG, a certificate that we become a good doctors, or is it the application of what we learn in 4.5 years, in the CET exam that is a reflection of our education standards ?
When everything was going fine, what is the need to take such drastic steps to crush our dreams. When I came to this profession chasing my dreams, little did I realize that I would need a long medical lineage, a surname or a Godfather to make them come true. Many of us find it difficult to put our answers in stories….scoring less marks….does that mean that we know less than our high % seekers ?? The Govt. thinks that this will make better MBBS doctors…true….Sir, but please understand that an MBBS does not stand anywhere today….we cannot survive in this competitive outside world ‘except in the villages’ without a post graduate degree…..No doctor will say that he came in this field for SOCIAL SERVICE…..MBBS is already long enough and the Govt. seems to be leaving no stone unturned to make matters worse….By the time we will finish SECURING a PG admission and COMPLETING that, we would all be bald or at least with grey hair.
I can only say is that this move will only increase corruption to sell post graduate seats among Govt. Medical colleges too…..Beware private colleges, you will have competition in your business ! 51 % reservation-reluctantly acceptable, MO ship-we will manage (most of us do not have Rs.5 Lac to pay the Govt. just for 1 year…wished we had a salary like that….Thanks for the bait of Rs.1 Lac anyways…..But scrapping PG CET –not acceptable at all costs. I think its time that the medical fraternity and all students come together and oppose this INSANE move.
WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR ??Be your own GODFATHER.
This article is dedicated in the MEMORY OF THOSE MEMORIES that I will cherish for a lifetime…all thanks to this WANAR SENA at LTMMC that made every moment special…..Guys, this one is just for you and a tribute to the person who put in more than we did really…Dr.Prayag Kini….the person whose vision we all justified and fulfilled by our confidence and hard work. I really would have been lying if I would say that did not want to participate in BMC ’09….but to be frank, the thought of final year studies really makes you to have second thoughts. I did not participate last two years after my Dad’s CABG that really put me in a shell not wanting to be the same person that I always was…..But thanks to you guys who wanted me to JUST REVIEW YOUR SPEECHES!!And Prayag sir who kept saying, “Mohit will not say no…..usko ward exam pass karna hai”, that I got to fulfill a wish, never too late….
Sorry Guys……I did not turn up too much for the training session, so I am in no position to write an emotional letter like Nitesh, but I still have tried to hit a century by these thoughts on a lighter note.So here it goes…..
President to the Board for BMC selection at LTMMC - Dr. ND Moulik
Team Manager - Dr.Prayag Kini(SRK of the LT NIGHTREADERS,wished it would have ended like chak de India)
Team Physiotherapist – Dr.Sohum Dave,the only person on Earth to be certified a Doctor in front of 3 senior doctors in flat 35 days
Commentators – Dr.Uma Sunder and Dr.Alok Sharma to whom we all are really grateful for their inputs and suggestions.
TEAM MEMBERS ARE AS FOLLOWS IN THE ORDER OF APPEARANCE :-
1)NIDHI- Captain who did a good job like MSD to lead FROM FRONT….AND TRYING ALL POSITIONS OTHERWISE.
2)ABHIJNA- The Bhajji in our team….who really did something to keep us all
smiling, more on her than on what we were initially laughing about. IAM SURE YOU WILL BE MADE MUTE MANY MORE A TIMES BY THE TIME YOU FINISH MBBS….in exam vivas…..Remember,I am a friend to all.
3)SUJAY- The pervert who has seen so much porn that he knows the facial expressions at every stage of THE ACT…all I can say is BACHNA AE HASEENON.Dost,thanks ki tune mujhe phasan daala BMC mein.
4)ABHA- The RAKHI SAWANT DIEHARD FAN…who love to be in the spotlight for all wrong reasons….thanks for writing my so powerful speech.
5)SHRUTI- THE LOW WEIGHT BABY,ALL SET TO TAKE UP SOME CHALLENGES….I am so proud to officially declare, she is NOT GOING AROUND WITH KUNAL !
6)MOHIT- I would say, I acted more like Yuvraaj, sabke chakke chuda diye….I still wished, we had time for the joker video
7)SURAJ- The wicket keeper, YOU LITERALLY HAD OUR WICKETS IN YOUR HANDS….special applause from me for your hard work….you should’nt have cried like Federer that day….but should have hit back at the NADALS there itself.
8)SUMEET- The happy go lucky, very hardworking researcher cum financer of the team who spoke of dinner at THE COPPER CHIMNEY knowing that all teammates were fighting for a GRADE C contract.SPECIAL ROLE IN TEAM-TINNITUS TO NIDHI in the question answers round.
9)ANKITA- Hats off to your patience,I am sure you’re THE ONE(Remember matrix) who will top PSM in your batch…our speeches a 50 times could not get you bored, PARK KI KYA MAJAL HAI KI TUJHSE PANGA LEGA??
10)MITALI- I must appretiate that you always came up with some GREAT IDEAS, QUESTIONS AND ARGUMENTS.
11)HAMZA- The FIFA player of the year…who really would have wanted to kick my ass very hard on the very first day that I came, What’s say yaar??Nice knowing you...
12)NITESH- You really won our hearts by your touching speech…and mine specially for showing my results live!
BEFORE- Guys, We all played like true champions yesterday and we truly deserve the worldcup…..hope the third umpire Dr.Menda does not become Darly Harper for us…..so keep your fingers crossed.
AFTER- Its just fine,we had WON the battle yesterday itself when we completely silenced the crowd after our presentation...no need to feel bad....I WOULD OPENLY LIKE TO CHALLENGE AFMC TO WIN A SYMPOSIUM AT A PLACE OTHER THAN INS ASHWINI...
Guys,some thoughts from the heart-I really loved spending such wonderful time with you all and I wished, I had shown some less attitude, waise bhi padhai karke kuch nahi ukhada maine….Sumeet,Nidhi and Abha, you were right,Brain finger printing needed me. The little gossips, the huddles and the cheers for each other….that was enough to touch all our hearts…hope this friendship only grows from here.
This article would be incomplete without talking about what Dr.Prayag has done for us….we wouln’nt have been so good if it would not have been him as our backbone…I personally took part just for his vision for me and was so very happy to get his message saying, “Mohit,you justified my belief in you.”…and also Sohum,we all know that you were also an integral part of this team and you gave more than your 100 %...money can’t show it, but words are louder….
Guys,I don’t really care what Dr.Lawrence Farwell said after yesterday, but I am very sure,if we ever had our brain mapped by BFP, we will all show the same P300 wave at the very thought of BMC’ 2009…….LTMMC was the best yesterday, pray that someday judges will say,SATYAMEV JAYETE,May the truth triumph.
Note-Each and everyone of you has to leave your views in comments for others to read.
They said-Don’t keep high hopes
It hurts when dreams are broken
I said-I want to fly the limitless sky
and measure the span of my wings…..
They said-Don’t go deep in the ocean
You too will drown like many others
I said-I want to give it a try
to leave my footsteps on the ocean…..
They said-You will get lost fighting life
Nowhere to be found in the dark space
I said-I’ll search till I find the light one day
to shine like a star and guide others like me…..
Not concerned about what they said
I continued to walk alone and finally found my path
Now they follow me behind to shout
We always said this boy will win…..
Each one of us in our lives would have gone through touching times, seen incidents, events which leave their imprints in our lives….This is a true incident about a friend of mine who lost his life after being hit by a fast train on track 4 at Kandivali about 5 years back.
Surinder,21, was a normal guy, happy go lucky, fun to be with. We enjoyed his company, playing with his dog and loved to purposely tease him about his Nepali looks to make him angry. Initially they were 4 brothers and 1 sister, until his elder brother drowned in the sea many years back and it was left to him to take care of the family then being the eldest of the remaining siblings.
On that unfortunate day, he was coming back from his coaching classes along with one of his classmate, Rahul. Like many others who cross the railway track, they too decided to take the shorter route not knowing death was waiting for them on the other side of the tracks,not realizing that a fast train was approaching and soon found themselves too close to the train. At that moment both of them went blank unable to decide whether to step back or jump forward to save their lives…..Surinder took half a step back, Rahul took half a step forward but still both found themselves in the path of the oncoming train. Suddenly Rahul held Surinder’s hand, pulled him and jumped forward. Unfortunately, Surinder got hit on the head, his right leg got amputated and he died on the spot whereas Rahul managed to get past the train but the shock of what had just happened was so unbearable that he went into coma. Both were taken to Bhagwati hospital and their respective families were contacted to give them the shocking news. Surinder’s younger brother was called by the police to identify his body and by this time, we all had come to know about the sudden demise of our dear friend.
While the family was in shock seeing his body and we mourned his death, one of our rich friend Kishor and his rich friends (local corporator’s sons) had an idea- To feed dinner to 11 pandits and 100 beggars the next day as our mark of condolence to Surinder and pray for his soul……A bad idea according to me as those guys thought themselves too smart to decide what should be done in such sad time and all that too against the customs and religion.
Next evening, the parking area next to Surinder’s building was cleared, halogens put, carpets spread and a table was laid on which stood a big photograph of our friend with a garland and flowers around while the caterers prepared the dinner in the garages behind. All of our friends, local people from the complex, watchmen, etc had gathered. Many people shed a tear or two and left. By this time, Kishor could manage to get only 7 pandits but not even a single beggar came on knowing that it was offered as a condolence to the dead. The Pandits came, had a small prayer, enjoyed the dinner and went away…
But the food was remaining…that too of a 100 people. Kishor and his friends had spent a lot of money on the caterers and the lighting….Now what is too be done? Should the food be allowed to get wasted? Money go down the drain?.......Of course …..NOT.On hearing their next worst idea,I came back home and stood near my window.
I could see all my friends who had gathered to pay tribute to Surinder eat the remaining dinner that was meant for the beggars……a sad picture I was seeing that had a huge impact on me.
To this day I question the condolence meeting that evening, whether the friends really mourned Surinder’s death or celebrated it with a dinner party? Does anyone of you know the answer?
The world now seems to be going through the worst financial crisis…markets falling everywhere, rupee becoming weaker day by day, banks becoming bankrupt and so on. To garnish the already wounded people, the terrorists all over seem to be celebrating some festival everyday for which they are bursting bombs like firecrackers each day at some part of the world or another….I think Osama bin laden should concentrate on other fields too than just using the internet to give signs of him being alive. The recent bomb blasts in various places in India and Pakistan has kept me wondering what I would have really done if I would have suddenly turned into Mr.Laden…..here are few of my crazy thoughts :-
1) Distribution of free pistols to children…..boys normally like guns, I would help replace the plastic ones with originals….as for the girls, I would come up with my own theme of a BARBIE DOLL AS A SUICIDE BOMBER.
2) Opening schools for promotion of terrorism –In my schools, I would make sure that after each period, a low intensity bomb explodes in place of the bell. My schools would offer practical training in all the latest technology in making bombs and using the most advanced weapons with regular updates. Our curriculum would also include teachings to hijack planes and nuclear scientists along with pictures of our old missions shown on a slide show. I would also get eminent terrorists to hold talk shows for encouraging my little future terrorists….in short do everything to get my INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL OF TERROISM an ISO 9001 CERTIFICATE…..and yes, free scholarships and a chance to study abroad in Pakistan for my toppers.
3) I would stand for the presidential candidate in the U.S in the future election…..If I am not selected, I will try my hand in Pakistan where I'm sure I will win…..Once I'm through I will try to get Afghanistan merged with Pakistan and name it LADENISTAN.
4) I will also start a LADEN TRUST OF FAMILY WELFARE to support the family of all those brothers who get mad after watching videos of me trying to teach them WORLD PEACE but surprisingly end up becoming terrorists.
5) Lastly, I will request the MEDICAL COUNCIL OF INDIA to make it compulsory for medical interns to get training in my camps after their 3 months of PSM posting because my studies indicate that after the posting, interns feel like going nuts and the wild animal in them wakes up…..I shall provide them with free placements and lucrative jobs for treating my terrorist brothers in Afghanistan and Pakistan.
Enough of these wild thoughts……I am a deep thinker, so was just wondering where the world was going from now….. I am happy to be on the road to become a doctor AND SAVE LIVES than be an illiterate terrorist who kills innocent people in the name of jihad……LONG LIVE HUMANITY !
In the circle of life we going on and on
Meeting new faces till our time is all gone
Bitter truth I want you all to know
Think of it when you are feeling low
Your shadow alone follows you
Where ever you go and whatever you do
There is something within us that keeps us true
Where ever you go and whatever you do
We go through the smiles and we go through pain
The journey of life is not a simple game
Feel your soul,feel your heart
Look within,to give it a start
When you’re left broken on the lonely road
Follow the path your mind has shown
Your shadow alone follows you
Where ever you go and whatever you do
There is something within us that keeps us true
Where ever you go and whatever you do
Don’t regret ,no tears for the time we see
Your best friends should be I,MYSELF & ME
Look forward with hope and enjoy the days now
Your shadow alone follows you
Where ever you go and whatever you do
There is something within us that keeps us true
Where ever you go and whatever you do
Flowers bloomed in my heart, I know not why,
Stars twinkled in my eyes, I know not why,
Life looked so perfect, I know not why.
Then I decided to give it a thought
I asked my mind, my heart and soul
Eureka! I’ve found my answer
Yes, I know now that I’m in love.
Day and night I’m thinking of her
Sunrise and sunset I’m thinking of her
Everything goes so fast around
Yet time seems to have come to a standstill.
I thought & thought…I was going crazy,
So decided to express the feeling from within
Taking a chance one day I told her
And waited patiently for her answer……..
Life had changed completely for now
I was getting impatient, restless
Every minute seemed like an hour & hour seemed like a day
Every time I thought of her, the bubbles of expectation popped in my heart
Now the day has finally come and my happiness knows no bounds
Getting ready for the perfect charismatic look
Thinking that the clouds of darkness will disappear today
With a smile, I left for her……
Met her at the corner of the road
Our eyes met and my heart beat fast
Just waiting for her reply
With a mystical smile, she said……NO
My heart broke into a million pieces
My smile had evaded me
It seemed someone had stabbed me in the heart
Dejected, I turned to go.
Sitting quietly under a tree
I thought to myself-Why am I showing no feelings?
Suddenly, my face lit up as I said to myself
Why should I cry? I have not lost anything
I lost someone who did not love me,
But she lost someone who really loved her…
Next morning was a new beginning, the wind buzzed in my ears
The birds chirped and gave me strength
The fragrance of the flowers made me calm
Life looked so beautiful once again
For me that girl was just a bait
God said-For true love now my child you have to wait….
Last night ,I just happened to come across a piece of paper that had evaded me for almost 8 long years and there was no place at home that I had not searched for it all this while…..it had “My last words as the HEADBOY” of my dear school where I spent ten years of my life….I know ,I’m no Pandit Nehru to have my speech becoming famous like “At the stroke of midnight…….”but I decided to put it on my blog before the invaluable piece of paper gets lost again…..and also to show that the talent of writing was always there in me, I just realized it late…
Dated 30/1/2002
Respected Principal Mam, teachers and my dear friends,
It has been a pleasure being with you all and spending such a long time with you’ll. Today when it is the last day when we’ll be meeting you, I would like to share with you some of those moments which I will cherish for the rest of my life. Being in this school for a decade was a long journey for me and in these 10 years I have really learnt what it means to be a student, what should be the qualities of a student, that every person in himself has the potential to achieve great heights in life and live up to everyone’s expectations. The only thing we need is desire, devotion, dedication, faith, confidence and determination. These are the jewels of a successful life.
In this journey of school life with the school, teachers and all of you, I have traveled from the station of warmth and care to the station of love and friendship, from the station of kindness and gentleness to the station of sacrifice and happiness, from the station of faith and determination to the station of confidence and hope. And now that the journey is about to get over ,the time has come for us to leave you people to attain greater goals in life.
I still wish I could still spend more days of my life with you’ll, the teachers and the school but its not possible as everything that becomes a part of something will always have an end. The time has come when we have to fasten our seat belts and speed up to the path where we can see our goals waving to us. I wish the very best to all of you and may God bestow upon you every happiness and success.
In the end, I would like to read out to you what exactly is our life….
Life is a Challenge -meet it
Life is a Gift -accept it
Life is an Adventure -dare it
Life is a Sorrow -overcome it
Life is a Tragedy - face it
Life is a Duty -perform it
Life is a Game -play it
Life is a Mystery -unfold it
Life is a Song -sing it
Life is an Opportunity -take it
Life is a Journey -complete it
Life is a Promise -fulfill it
Life is a Love -discover it
Life is a Beauty -praise it
Life is a Truth -realise it
Life is a Struggle -fight it
Life is a Puzzle -solve it
Life is a Goal -achieve it
A heart full THANKS for all the respect and honor I have got being a part of this school that I’m so proud of.
Gunj Gunj
Aa rahi hai gunj
Gunj Gunj
Chaa rahi hai gunj
Gunj hoon main apni raahon ki
Gunj hoon main apni yaadon ki
Gunj hoon main apni dhadkan ki
Gunj hoon main apni tadpan ki
Zindagi tu yeh jawab de
Mere aasun kaa hisab de
kya paap maine kar diya
Kyun dard mujhe diya
Kaaton ki rah pe phir chala agar
Ladunga tujhse main wahin magar
Sar naa jhukaya hai maine abhi
Waada raha,Haar naa manunga main kabhi
Gunj Gunj
Aa rahi hai gunj
Gunj Gunj
Chaa rahi hai gunj
When the world seems too uncaring,
People around busy and deaf hearing,
And you seek refuge, then don’t expect,
Search within yourself to get your spirit back.
Be yourself always no matter what,
Let the fire burn within molten and hot,
“You are a loser”, people may say,
But listen to what your instincts convey.
The world will then seem a better place,
Deep within you’ll find smiles and solace,
Be alone yet not lonely, your mind and soul meet,
And see yourself turn into a happy free spirit…….
NEVER EXPLAIN YOURSELF TO ANYONE BECAUSE……
THE PERSON WHO LIKES YOU DOES’NT NEED IT….
AND
THE PERSON WHO DISLIKES YOU WONT BELIEVE IT……
I don’t intend to write this because I need to give an explanation to anyone nor is it because I think I’ve become too old to write my autobiography…. its just that I want to know how much I’m true to myself……This is the article in which I allow people to peek a boo in my world (unrealistic for many) which I generally hide from most people around…..Everything I write is true to the best of my knowledge…..it might seem I’m showing off but I don’t care what you think about it, whether you believe it or not…..because this is the article I’m writing and dedicating to myself.
Born on 10th feb,1987 in a small town of Shamli, U.P ,India……named as “CHATRAPATI” by the priest who made my horoscope, Nicknamed-Chunmunn / Chunnu by my brother…I have all the characteristics of a true Aquarian and a very strong number 1 person…. 1+0 = 1 for 10th February and 1+0+2+1+9+8+7=28=2+8=10=1+0= 1 for 10/02/1987…….. the reason for my leadership and dominating nature….The initial days of my life were spent in the small town life in Rajasthan where my dad was posted for his job……I don’t remember much about those days, being very young then……yet few memories still remain……my real roller coaster life started when we moved to Mumbai in August, 1993.
LIFE AT SCHOOL
I got admission in LOKHANDWALA FOUNDATION SCHOOL which had just opened then…… At first, I was denied admission to that school because I had come from a Hindi medium school in Rajasthan, the then principal Mrs.Mukherjee thought that I would find it very difficult to cope with the other city kids. After many requests, she agreed to let me in.
As time went by, I began to enjoy my school days a lot ,thanks to loads of extra curricular activities like pottery, karate, swimming, skating, boxing, craft, art, singing, cooking, dancing, etc…..apart from the usual fun curricular that schools offer to kids…..My progress started to show in my marks and by 5th standard ,I had developed the image among the teachers of a very hardworking sincere student who had a lot of potential if he still worked harder(for 5 consecutive years, both the terms, different class teachers meant the same thing just using different sentences in my remarks column).Since 5th std. the feeling of getting a rank in class struck me and till my 10th std. I always came in the top 3…never 1st because that place was always clinched by Ananya who used to be on 93-94 % and me and the Radha in 77-80 range fighting for 2nd and 3rd place. Those 10 years were when the foundation of my life was laid down and I emerged as the person I’m today…..The school gave me everything that I could have asked for to learn, brought out the best in me…..gave me the honor to be a vice prefect, then the head boy and now the President of my school alumni…..the teachers, my friends, my parents all have played their role wonderfully in getting me to stand where I’m today….on the road to become a doctor...any time I feel low in life now , I look back on those old 60 odd certificates that I won in school for quizzes ,sports ,debates ,elocution ,dramatization ,poetry writing, drawing …list continues….and my school photos and report cards that really pump me back again thinking what a great journey I had in school….. I had managed to get 91 % in 2002 I.C.S.E exam and got myself an admission in the science college I had set my target on – D.G.RUPAREL…the college where all the top rankers went. I really miss my school days because I was like a celebrity there, young preprimary children wanting to shake hands thinking that the head boy they see on the stage in the assembly everyday is someone great….but most importantly, I really just miss the applause and respect I received in school……
SURPRISINGLY,15 YEARS LATER,IN MARCH 2008- I SOMEHOW GOT IN TOUCH WITH MRS.MUKHERJEE WHO NOW TEACHES IN DHIRUBHAI AMBANI SCHOOL AND WAS INVITED FOR DINNER…...AN EMOTIONAL REUNION infact…..
JUNIOR COLLEGE DAYS
My days in college are memorable because I found my best friends for life there….ani,saucy,popu,kunal,chetan,harsh,amit…..I named our group THE SHOOTING STARZ-LIGHT YEARS AHEAD OF THE REST…..In those two years of college, we guys would have gone out for innumerable times to bandstand(my favourite place in Mumbai), lunch and dinners, bowling, few movies and the usual bunking together…..gosh I don’t believe we are still together and all 8 of us often meet frequently or at least make it a point to talk to each other...the one thing that brings a smile to my face is that during one of the English lecture, I and popu jumped out of the window into the gallery and chetan followed us waiving bye to the teacher…..We’ve shared each and every problem, crushes, journals, answer papers etc. We laughed on the same jokes, on the same people (low waist jeanswala, body builder), on the same teachers (remember Gawde? Shimpi?) and laughed aloud. We guided each other – in our careers, homework, love life (?), etc.. None of us will ever forget – Canepy, Xeroxwala, ‘aye Gujarati!’, Toke Ma’am, Tapan and his ‘slapstick’ adventure, Mahajan’s lecture (aunty log, aunty log!), etc.
LIFE IN MEDICAL COLLEGE
In 2004, Gave my medical entrance test but could manage only a dental seat which I did not want because I always dreamt to be cardiologist one day, so decided to give it another shot and slogged it out to get an admission to LOKMANYA TILAK MUNICIPAL MEDICAL COLLEGE the following year. Life had not been so great ever…even today, I cannot believe it sometimes that I’m living my goal.
Days in medical college have not been so very kind to me….got ragged a lot among localites in the first year….and now because for some reason I’ve become one of the most misunderstood person in my batch…people think I have loads of attitude (I don’t deny it either),I’m arrogant, shrewd, having superiority complex, etc….I’ve never paid attention to such things and never will…I don’t really care what people think about me even without knowing me in person…making image about me even without actually interacting with me….Just because I’m very choosy about the company I keep, the friends I make ,talk very less but only sense…does not entitle me to such titles…I don’t want to be dictated terms as to how I should behave, the people whom I should talk to , act in a particular manner…I’m no slave…If you are good to me, I shall reciprocate…but I really hate the people who have the habit of being different in front of you and talking bullshit when I’m not around….As of studies ,I know I’m not working as of my real caliber…but I actually don’t want to now….When the time comes in final year and preparing for PG,I will get back in top gear…So all those people wanting to get me to change, I bet you’ll fail because if a day comes when I realize that I’ve made some mistakes in life, I will not need you to tell me what they were and how to be sorry for them.. I can deal with my own problems….
Anyways,I have enjoyed fully each day I've been to college,many a times alone but not lonely.Highest point of time in college was when BAND IGNITION performed at the college fest singing songs I had written myself….a dream come true for me…I’ve made a few great friends in college whom I love dearly…that’s all I need….Its better to have few true friends than to be friends with many false ones…
Looking forward patiently at my future….waiting to fulfill my UNREALISTIC dreams…living life to the fullest as I have always….
SOME LAST WORDS- I AM WHAT I AM , LET ME BE ME…….
Fortunately, my high spirit after my last article has remained intact (unlike what a few friends thought that it was impulsive and will soon wither off).After removing all negativities from life (deleting useless contacts from my mobile, removing not so good and back bitching friends from Orkut/Facebook, stopping to being negative and thinking I’m on the road to become a loser after all the hard work, etc ), I’ve once again begun to listen to my heart and my instincts like before as a result of which I feel I’ve just been reborn….a renaissance of life. My urge to winning, move ahead in life, chasing my goals is come back to its maximum… I feel such a stronger person now, optimistic, full of life still following my same old motto of living life to the fullest and enjoying every moment as it comes my way.
A thing I just can’t stop is a constant retrospection and introspection of my life, the fire that keeps me growing up as a person, teach new things and basically live every moment.. The people who have really brought out the best in me apart from my family, teachers have been my FRIENDS. I’ve been really blessed to have found a few real jewels, my true friends for life - in school, in junior college and now in my medical college……
I'm sure each of us meet a million people in our lifetime but how many of them fulfill our criteria of friendship ?Have you ever thought why friends come into our lives, some remain while a few walk away?....You might just find the answer in the next few lines to classify people we meet randomly……..
1)FRIENDS FOR A REASON– They comprise of the friends whom we meet for a short temporary phase of life ranging for a few minutes, hours, days or weeks. They are the people who fill the emptiness in life our lives by their presence. We feel their need and importance in our life, a need which we might have expressed and suddenly out of no where they enter our world like a GOD sent angel to assist us through our difficult time, guide us to the correct path and give us that extra support we need mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically. They are there by your side just for the reason you needed them to be.
Once they have made all the difference to our lives, becoming the reason of our smile,the friendship abruptly comes to an end. Without any wrongdoing on our part they DO or SAY something which hurt us, many a time they simply choose to walk away wanting us to bear the burden of life on our own or reasons they know best. What is important for us is that they came when we really needed them, they’ve done their work, fulfilled our desires and now the time has come to move on….
2) FRIENDS FOR A SEASON- They are the friends who are by our side in the ups and downs that life takes us through. They play the role of a teacher and a guide in the time when the others are busy to care and it is really up to us to grow as a person we want ourselves to be. They are there to teach us to share, learn and prepare for things in the unseen future. In their presence, we experience peace, happiness, calmness and feeling of security that SOMEONE IS THERE…Our world begins to revolve around these people and they give us an unbelievable amount of joy….
3) FRIENDS FOR A LIFETIME- These are the friends the relationship with whom give us the lessons for a lifetime. They help us to lay down our very strong emotional foundation. We love the person as much as they love us. Our only job is to put the lessons that we had learned from them all this while knowing them to use in all the other relationships and areas of life....making the fruits of friendship sweeter lasting till time ceases to exist.
What is in our hands is to decide which one is it for the people we randomly meet in our life, then we’ll realize what is to be done for that person. .I've decided for myself,you make your call........
It’s a cold Sunday evening and I’m standing in my window enjoying the rains, the cool wind blowing,and the little drops of rain that fall on my face occasionally…..I feel very calm and happy today…..After a lot of time thinking, I have finally decided to shed the false mask that I was wearing. I cannot anymore hide the true self that I’m, stop myself from being the real person I’m at heart. I want the world to see the face I was hiding for so long. I want the pages of the story of my life to be open to all and not become a subject of mockery and discussion acting like a person I’m not…..Now I just want to be true to every moment of life that comes my way…..
After hearing about the compulsory rural posting policy ,even I was struck equally harder as any of my medical friends , but I have this habit of thinking too much about life…so off lately had been feeling negative about medicine seeing my friends in other streams earning big and quickly…..But just yesterday I was at the college hostel sitting with my friends talking about life…. surprisingly ,discussing stuff which really pumped me again about the career I’m in….The thought that touched me the most was ,“If ever I repent coming to medicine ,I should just wear my doctor’s white coat ,put a stethoscope around my neck , go to the EMS and come out…..the staring eyes of people ,their expectations building up would be enough for me to get back to reality and feel lucky that I’m here”.That was enough to give me a lot of positive thoughts.
We are where we are today because we’ve all worked day and night for it…slogged it out and finally realized our goal. Many of us will agree that we wanted to be a Doctor to realize the sheer joy of being GOD’S TOOL .If we all have faith in GOD and his actions, then why do we ask for some evidence? Let things move on their own pace, the secrets of life unfold on their own…be thankful to be what we are and what we have…How many of us do that? I remember a small story that I had read in some value education book many years ago.A man after death reaches heaven, roams around and sees three departments there.The first one was the PRAYER RECEIVING DEPARTMENT, very busy and full with voices of “Dear GOD,I want this, I want that….”.Second was the PRAYER ANSWERING DEPARTMENT, equally busy. The third one which he would have just missed in the corner had a single angel sitting there…bored having nothing to do…On enqUiring he found out that it was the THANKSGIVING DEPARTMENT…touched? Think about it…This is what we all do, forget to be thankful for what we have while running behind for things we don’t have.
REMEMBER - If you think you’ve missed out on life, I suggest you slow down…you need not run behind it thinking it’s music won’t last ….enjoy the journey of life…its not a race. Lets go slower, hearing the music of life before the song of our life is over….I now realize that there are two kinds of aspiring people on Earth….There are Astronomers and there are the Astronauts…..The astronomers are the ones who stand by their lonely window with a telescope to gaze at the stars…The astronauts are the ones who reach for the stars and leave their footprints….Until now, I’ve been an astronomer…but I don’t want to be one now…..There comes a time in your life when you realize that if you stand still ,you will remain at this point forever ,if you fall and stay down, life will pass you by….I now feel to begin life all over again.
ALL CHARACTERS IN THIS ARTICLE ARE "NOT" FICTITIOUS AND BEAR SOME RESEMBLENCE TO MANY PEOPLE LIVING AND NOT DEAD. READER'S DISCRETION IS ADVISED.
I was reading the Times of India the other day and was surprised to find a headline on the front page …..”BA HAS LOST MY BAGGAGE 18 TIMES”……as I read on ,I just found out that it was about the blog post of none other than the biggest superstar in Indian cinema, Amitabh Bachan……Now I Don’t have a problem with what he writes on his blog ,after all he has all the right like I’m enjoying mine writing this…. but what baffles me is that it makes it to a news of national interest….it is published in all the newspapers and shown in news channels around, British Airways coming up with apologies ,etc….As such ,the news media has no work these days but to talk about all comedy serials (I’m fed up from all of them, every news channel has some or the other cheap comedian trying to act as if he has cracked the best jokes ever with judges laughing to show their made up smiles and stained teeth in the camera on jokes they don’t understand and give them marks....really stupid) ,about daily soaps on their sister channel , crap from bollywood and about GOD showing all signs of his existence…..PLEASE ,STOP THIS SHIT…..
Mr.Bachan has been in the news these days for his blog and for going on an “UNFORGETTABLE TOUR” with his family and some other actors…..both these things had made headlines because there were reports that Amitji was not writing on his own but had it written by someone or being paid for writing his blog…Their TOUR'S STORY is for me to tell……
One day, jaya told Amitji…. “Aeji, I think we’ve become old now , Abkishek is also finally married after having all the fun with Dipanita Sharma and Karisma Kapoor and I now want to see the world , can you take me on a world tour ?” ……Amitji replied, “ All right ,but I suppose even Abhishek and Aishwarya have no work these days so lets take them along. I will arrange for the tour.People seem to be forgetting me because of no recent hit, lets name our tour THE UNFORGETTABLE.”
INTERMISSION
Their stroll around the world is all set now, they’ve all left…..roped in a few other stars and I was left wondering the reasons for them to take this break .After scratching my head for a long time ,I could come up with only these following hypothesis :-
1)UNEMPLOYMENT – Because of Mr.Bachan not inviting all his FRIENDZ (pun intended) from bollywood for his son’s wedding, everybody seems to be angry with him. They’ve all decided to boycott the junior B and prevent him from getting some work…Who cares anyway, he has given only few hits so far….guru ,bunty aur babli,sarkar,yuva…rest all bombed…So all of them are free now and Mr.bachan thought that may be his monthly budget will get balanced again if they can earn by dancing around at few places……I think, the family members can join some EKTA KAROOR'S television soaps…they are doing great these days and money is also good…..
2)PSYCHIATRIST ADVICE – Amitji has still not recovered from the shock of his great performance in RAM GOPAL VARMA KI AAG and his psychiatrist has advised him to go for a vacation.
3)RUNNNG AWAY – He seems to be running away from all the BHUDDHAS around chasing him asking him the tricks to woo a girl of your daughter’s age…..like he did in NISHABD AND CHEENI KAM…..lucky man he....aaj kal toh langoor hi angoor kha rahe hain...
4)MNS BREAK – He has been given “TIME PLEASE” by MNS leader to prepare for the second round of debating…..seeing the opportunity, cadbury break toh banta hai….
5)SPEND SOME MONEY – the Bachans have signed a Rs.1500 crore deal with adlabs….thoda paisa udda diya toh kya pharak padta hai ? 300 crore for Amitji,100 crore for Abhishek,100 crore for Aishwarya.......and 1000 crore for Amar Singh to stay away.
6)SERIOUS JOB – He seems to be taking his job too seriously of promoting IIFA and bollywood around the world….what other way than to dance around and catch some attention….
7)“JUNIOREST B ” – I am sure in an year or two , a new Bachan will soon join the family. So before they see all the painful time , a nice vacation was required.....
8)SON’S TRAINING – He has already taught Abhishek to copy him while acting in the movies….poor chap has no talent of his own…..these stage shows are the other pastimes……he should be taught that also…..COPYCAT BANNA HAI TOH PURA BANO NAA….
9)BORED - Amitji is bored of the hassles with his 'rivals' at home with some news cooking up every other day in the media and want to bore the international audience now...
MR.BACHAN ,I WISHED, YOU HAPPEN TO VISIT MY BLOG SOMETIME. (LIKE NAGESH KUKUNOOR ,the other day who asked me to contact him and has still been on the run…..Im still waiting for a call from you nagesh), ….all I wanted to do was remove my frustration of my exams coming up , but unfortunately you became the bakra….AND,PLEASE REMEMBER TO DRINK DABUR GLUCOSE BEFORE THE CONCERT AND ALSO GIVE TO OTHERS ....MAY BE IT'LL GIVE SOME EXTRA ENERGY TO YOUR OLD LONG LEGS.....
This is one of the songs performed by band ignition at the ashwamedh 08 and my favourite song that i've written till date........the lyrics of this song were written in an hour and half flat and i just think that if nagesh kukunoor would have read it before selecting aashayein for iqbal,may be he would have selected this song.....ha ha
MANZIL HAI,SAPNE HAI
AAGE HII BADNA TUJHE…
MUSHKIL HAI,AASHA BHI
NAA KAHIN RUKNAA TUJHE…
LETS BELIEVE IN OUR DREAMS,SO WE SHINE LIKE A STAR
THERE IS NOTHING TO STOP,OUR GOAL IS NOT SO FAR
LET US JOIN OUR HANDS & HOPE FOR THE BEST
LEAVE OUR SORROWS BEHIND AND GOD WILL DO THE REST
TERA LAKSHYA PUKARE TUJHE,TU CHAL UDD KAHIN
AANDHI JAHAN ROKE TUJHE,USSE LAD WAHIN
LETS BELIEVE IN OUR DREAMS,SO WE SHINE LIKE A STAR
THERE IS NOTHING TO STOP,OUR GOAL IS NOT SO FAR
LET US JOIN OUR HANDS &HOPE FOR THE BEST
LEAVE OUR SORROWS BEHIND AND GOD WILL DO THE REST
BHAROSA HAI GHAR PAR SABHI KO TUJHPE
TUNE SAPNE DIKHAYE UNHE
TERI JEET PAR MAA KE AANSU NIKLE
PAPA GALE LAGAYE TUJHE…
SHIKHAR PAR HUM PAHUCHEN,JISKO SOCHA HUMNE
APNA LAKSHYA HAI PAYA,YEH JAAN LEIN SABHI
BHARA JOSH HUMMEIN,EK KHWAB HUM SAJAYEIN
CHAAYE LAAKH TUFAAN AAYE,DARE NAA HUM KABHI…
LETS BELIEVE IN OUR DREAMS,SO WE SHINE LIKE A STAR
THERE IS NOTHING TO STOP,OUR GOAL IS NOT SO FAR
LET US JOIN OUR HANDS & HOPE FOR THE BEST
LEAVE OUR SORROWS BEHIND AND GOD WILL DO THE REST
PEACE OF MIND IS A TREASURE
OF GREATER WORTH THAN GOLD
MORE PRECIOUS THAN ANY JEWEL,
AND IF THIS PRIZE YOU HOLD
THEN YOU ARE RICH
BEYOND ALL TELLING THOUGH SOMETIMES,
TIME MAY PROVE UNKIND
IT CANNOT ROB YOU,
THE TREASURE OF A QUIET MIND…
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