Sunday, May 31, 2009

My False Mask


Sick of hiding behind my false mask
Where will life take me is all that I ask
Thinking and crying that I’ve been outplayed
Time to rectify too many mistakes that I made.

It took me so long to find the leading light
My dark side laughs over my sorry plight
Confused and shattered my heart is in pain
Time to pick the pieces and start all over again.

31.05.09

Friday, May 29, 2009

Repenting


I took it so lightly
Walked through it blindly
Not realizing what it meant
Crying now only to repent

Why did I act like a fool
Forgetting my dream since school
Running behind applause and fame
Were the hardships I faced,to blame?

Too expressive was then the child in me
Away from reality why did I be?
I shall toil now with determination and fire
I pray, I conquer my deepest desire.

-TO BE AN EMERGENCY PHYSICIAN ONE DAY.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Mind Freak


I’m a mind freak doing what I like
I’m a mind freak cruising on my bike
I’m a mind freak flying like a bird
I’m a mind freak unplugged from the world

Don’t tell me I’m different, I know that’s a fact
Had been always like this & weird I don’t act
The hidden stranger in me is what I want to find
You can too open the doors to your closed mind

I’m waiting, don’t know when our company ends
Feel so happy that we’re not the best of friends
Why you say, I’ve changed over the last few days
It’s just that I’ve stopped living my life your ways

I’m a mind freak doing what I like
I’m a mind freak cruising on my bike
I’m a mind freak flying like a bird
I’m a mind freak unplugged from the world

Friday, May 15, 2009

Free Spirit Unleashed


This article….no its not an article…its my current frame of mind and I didn’t want to miss writing about it because I know it is what will keep the fire burning within me…..off lately, I’ve been feeling great…..in fact on a high every moment of my life….These days I just feel that the free spirit that I claim to be (many don’t like it …but I don’t f*****g care about it) has been unleashed…..I feel stronger more than ever and really want to take life by its horns….may be it’s the hangover of living life everyday while I go to college on my cruiser bike…my love…. whom I call ‘Mercedes’..or post Band performance at the college festival….we did really rock.

I just feel that these days, I’m letting my soul show on my personality…this is who I was always and I am……care free….living every moment…leading a life where there are no rules…following what I preach, “APNA KAAM BANATA, BHAAD MEIN JAAYE JANTAA”…..doing what I feel like….not suppressing any of my deep desires of writing ,music ,driving ,riding ,playing ,photography ,etc … loving to be hated by some geeks…Later laughing over them, it hardly matters to me…being the bad guy…..MISCONCEPTION FOR MANY ?? …..LOOKS CAN BE DECEPTIVE…..may be that is what life means to me and I want to live it this way……WITHOUT CARING FOR THE WORLD AND THE INNOCENT ANGELS THAT LIVE IN IT…..WELCOME TO MY WORLD.

Today,I make life a promise, that I will always give it a tough fight…no matter however hard it tries to pull me down, I will never give up…..tough times don’t last, tough men do…..I have now put my past of sufferings, hardships behind and begun all over again with new aggression and a fire within my self. May be those lessons were ways of God to give me the best education possible with only one teacher….LIFE….from whom I’ve learned EVERYTHING till now….
I want to fulfill many dreams for my family and myself which remain unfulfilled for a long time….I have been lucky enough to have found the best pillars of support that I could…..My family , my teachers who keep reminding me of the potential that still remains to be tapped and very few friends (I choose to keep the list of friends very short…14-15 to be precise)……today I aspire to see myself as a cardiac surgeon or a cardiologist one day, have a house at Bandra seaside with a black Mercedes Benz parked in the garage…a big house with a music room ,gym ,temple ,billiards ,tt….and what not….Waiting for all of them to be fulfilled one day….I know I will….

I wish god could be a visitor on my blog because I want to say him a big THANK YOU …..for not giving me many things…..and giving me everything, everyone that I wanted in my world…TO BE HAPPY…..NO MATTER WHAT……

Continuing walking the road alone with memories and humming MY SONG….YOUR SHADOWS ALONE FOLLOW YOU…..